hey luma!!!
did u tell ur thralls abt how ur finally starting 2 get it yet?
how did it go? =)
they freaked out rite?
oml did u snap and stuff abt it?
luma i neeeeeed 2 hear all abt that if u did

just imagining it hehe
the look on their faces when they realize ur 2 powerful >=)
when they realize it wasnt rly up 2 them
its intoxicating isnt it
r u gonna admit it already?

Hello Mary
Apologies for the late response
I was busy organizing some of the home monitoring data
Interesting patterns recently though I need to check over some things there
But anyway
If you’re referring to telling my friends about my newfound control over Lily then yes i did
I did it over text to make sure they had space to consider things without charisma influencing them
That ‘group chat’ has been quiet for a few hours now
I assume they created a different ‘group chat’ without me or some such to discuss the matter
Though given it is past 4AM now and those I can smell are fast asleep discussion has probably halted there as well
I expect I will hear more of it in the morning
Around the same time as I release Lily for the day appropriately enough

o rite ur still on that arent u

Do you honestly expect anything else

ugh no not rly
itd just b nice
ig
if u gave up

Would it be nice or would it just be easier

oml that is the most classic luma question ever
like itd b both obvs
whats even the difference

I believe you know but I don’t see the value in litigating that right now regardless
The point is if this works out I won’t be snapping anytime soon
I suppose you’ll just have to get used to this
To concede our bet to your new Goddess

right n ur still on that 2
ur not my Goddess n she wasnt involved n our bet obvs but w/e
bigger question luma >=)
what happens when it doesnt work out
n they all run from u and u cant stop them
what then huh
r u gonna snap =)
if not what r u gonna eat

…I suppose I would have to rely on your thralls for a time

u rly think ill let u?
what if i dont
i dont have 2 theyre mine u no

I think you will
Like a good girl
But that’s besides the point
I have strong ties here so it doesn’t seem unreasonable to hope that the majority will stick by me
And at the very least I’ll have Hunter and Lily
It’s a higher retention rate than you can claim so far

OML SHUT UP
u said ud lay off that

That’s true
Apologies the instincts were speaking there somewhat
Though I will say your retention rate is not literally zero
And there is only one way to improve it

yea yea w/e
ur not gonna trick me in2 releasing more thralls ok

Is it a trick to persuade via information and evidence
I believe that is called politics at worst

nerd
u sound like a freaking lawyer
ur lucky i love u

…I honestly thought you’d cease saying things like that when I stopped having blood

n i thought youd get over yourself like months ago
like oml ur still like tiptoes learnin about fucking owning some1
thats like the first thing vamps learn
u get so smug but ur just doin the same thing super slow
its BORING

You sound like a hunter
Narrativizing everything

OML i am not a HUNTER
im just saying its a matter of time ok
eventually ull get it
u have 4ever 2 do it
thats why i let u keep jessica and helen
theyll b mine eventually anyway
hehehe

That’s not what you were telling me three days ago at your apartment

ok well im stupid sometimes ok???
there u win sometimes i do stupid shit like say sry 4 literally bein a good girl
bc u keep getting in my head or w/e
its ur fault

Of course
Regardless I will be releasing Lily this morning
Perhaps that is the first chapter of inevitable corruption
If so I will just have to make it take as long as possible
The appropriate actions don’t really change either way

hehe suuuuuure >=)

How is Caitlyn doing by the way
You have given her a day off since the incident last weekend yes

i uh
i kinda
forgot
dont punish me ok it wasnt on purpose

That’s alright
You could release her this morning?
I’m sure her and Lily would have much to talk about

abt being owned
hehe maybe lilyd hear about what its like bein owned by a real mistress instead of some lame-o nerd
n then shed come 2 me
what do u think abt that

I hardly find the prospect threatening
She knows she’s mine
For now

yea until shes mine like i said

She’s mine
More than anyone can belong to anyone else
Willingly and unwillingly
Mine

yea yea ur one is better or w/e
u wont be so smug after i release caitlyn this morning n she takes lily away hehe

You won’t be so smug when Caitlyn asks me to take her as well

YOU WON’T BE SO SMUG WHEN I’M FUCKING RIPPING UR HEAD OFF
STUPID BITCH

…
Apologies

sorry
look just
ugh lets just drop it

Agreed
We’re both capable of wreaking great havoc in each others’ affairs
No need to prove that
This kind of vitriol is…
Best left for the bedroom, I suppose

lmao
u would say that
ur always tryin 2 win when we fuck

I think you mean I’m always the winner
You certainly try

yea but u get so needy
i just let u win hehe

Is that what it was when you begged me to apologize to Jessica and Helen for you
And then asked me to take it back
And then started crying but insisted you were just remembering something sad
And didn’t elaborate

yea!
ur so gullible lmao ull buy anything

Of course
How foolish of me

anyway the point is caitlyns mine
more mine than lily is urs
no matter what u say

As long as Lily comes back to me when I have made every effort to ensure she doesn’t have to
She will always be mine
More than you could know
More than anyone else
It truly is harrowing
This feeling of utter control
Every second of her life
I could never fully trust it and yet it feels so natural
So simple

hehe yea~
u get it
thats what it feels like bein a good girl
shes urs
humans r there 2 b urs!
u can do w/e u want w/ them
like when jessica n helen played super mario strikers w/ me
n mindy was fucking me the whooole time
n i kept fucking w/ their heads!

That sounds elaborate
How do you think they feel about it now

ugh oml i get it
just like
u get the point rite
its hot!
u can do anything n theyll love u 4 it
even if its kinda stupid
i no ur weird abt it but like
theyre urs
lilys urs
shell do whatever stupid thing u wanna do
shes been doing it
its good rite

It’s even better knowing it’s her choice to allow that
You know what I mean don’t you
Knowing that tomorrow you will give Caitlyn a choice and she probably won’t leave you
Knowing she actually wants you
You with all your fixations and complications and baggage
Not just any vampire
It’s occurring to me that I stepped on that earlier so apologies
But still it’s nice isn’t it

its cute…
u think she rly will?

I suppose it’s hard to say
You’ll always face some risk
But you’ll be chosen freely
That’s what vampires so often lack i feel
The lack that kills them before they die
Or before they die again
‘Double die’ as Lily said when discussing that roleplay with Hunter
Whatever term you prefer

hehe that sounds weird
but yea ur rite
caitlyns mine she knows it
more mine than any1
the only 1 whos more owned is me
by my Goddess =)

To be fair perhaps that is true
Perahps you are more mine than Lily is

oml i knew u were gonna do that
the stupid Goddess thing

I must acknowledge your submission Mary
You’re a very good girl

i
whatever
ur not so powerful
i could cut u off n break u
u cant make me do anything

Of course
To be fair it would be careless of me not to have contingencies
I have actually been thinking about the need to try flirting again
Now that I know what I intend to do in whatever situation
If I can retrain that muscle I’ll hopefully be able to develop a ‘hunting routine’, so to speak
And make sure I’ll always be able to feed
It would be nice to help you develop one as well
One which amounts to more than glaring into the eyes of random women in bars and trains

hey i do it in alleys sometimes 2

A stark improvement

and i do more than hypnotize them!!!!!!

Yes
You sometimes make a pun first

uggghhhhhh

I understand of course
The less said about what I thought qualified as flirting before retransitioning the better
And frankly for several years into my life afterwards
I don’t mean to be hostile as such
I just know what it looks like when someone needs help

oml so typical
i dont need help ok
in case u didnt notice im doin pretty good on my own!

I understand you eat well
You have eleven thralls and you drink from others regularly without their consent
Without killing them or leaving a trace in their memories but certainly with great disturbance to whatever plans they might have had
We’ve been through this
I was still human the first time it came up

yea n ur points that im like bad right
im supposed to like
ask nicely or w/e
like a stupid human
instead of just taking them
like a good girl

Taking humans without consent is what a bad girl would do, yes
But I’m not trying to shame you Mary
Like I said I want to help you
I know you were quite introverted before being turned
And that that preposterous begetter of yours dragged you away from whatever friendships you did have
It’s only natural that you would fall into this
You never knew any other way
That’s all I want to offer you

ig thatd be nice
if any of that was like bad
but its not?
like idk what u want me 2 say
my Goddess freed me
She got rid of all the stupid human stuff in my life
She fixed me luma
dont u get that

I suppose ‘get rid of’ is one way to describe what she let you do to your best friend
But we’ve established she was far from perfect haven’t we
It was wrong of her to hit her thralls after all

uh
yea
it was wrong for Goddess to hit Her thralls
but uh

Good girl!

asjdfkl
w/e even if She was wrong this is good ok
way better than like talking abt weather like stupid humans
i dont even deal with their weather! they go out at daytime!!!
n its boring 2 talk abt anyway
what would i even say

I admit it is hard to sell
But you remember how it felt to see Caitlyn come back to you
Imagine that with someone new
I know it is hard to imagine being liked by a stranger
And I know it’s harder if you’re transgender, and harder still if you have unusual interests
And I’ve seen people grow more isolated in this city generation by generation
But it is possible

ig itd be kinda nice
but idk its also hot just making them love me instead?

Ah yes
Like you did to Jessica

uh yeah
it was hot even if um
yeah

It bothers you that she never truly loved you, doesn’t it
Even if you knew it was forced upon her
Some part of you still believed she had fallen for you besides the brainwashing
The same part that wants to believe you never needed the brainwashing
That you’re just that likable as a person despite your utter lack of social experience

no its fine
jessicas just like
she did love me
u ruined that so
like
also she probably doesnt remember how good it was
u dont know what ur talking abt

I won’t patronize you with my rejection of that line of reasoning
I’m just saying
If you simply act like a good girl and follow your Goddess’s lead, that won’t be a nagging seed of doubt anymore
Because you will be liked
Loved, even, perhaps
You will find people to draw close with
You truly won’t need the brainwashing
The way I don’t need it
The way I wish to continue not needing it
Doesn’t that sound nice?

uh
feels weird
idk
itd feel better if u just stopped being stupid n snapped instead

You’re not understanding Mary
So much of the blood I smell day to day is mine already
I don’t need to snap anymore
Not if I can put together a functional strategy to meet people
That sort of certainty would make it so simple to take no for an answer
Even for you
The confidence that you will always have someone willing
That there will always be someone to take and that they will ask you to do so again and again
Imagine openly being the most alluring most interesting person at a venue
Not just the vampire hiding in the corner
Not just the trans woman simultaneously scared to approach and desperate to maintain a connection
But a person
A confident and alluring woman who knows her worth and knows the venue is hers
The impulse to start rampaging like a wild animal hardly compares

ig its nice if its all mine…
but like
its not like i dont do that stuff already (=<
im super sexy n everyone knows it
caitlyn fell for me
she loves me so like
who cares if im hiding in a corner
talkings just awkward ok

Talking is awkward yes
Certainly I’ve gotten quite rusty on that as well
But I know from experience that it doesn’t stay so difficult
And it’s not as if either of us would lack anything to talk about
Being a vampire is quite the conversation starter

usually ppl just flip out if u say that though

Yes and managing that is going to be difficult
I still need to figure some way to establish a basis of trust
Easier said than done
All I’m saying right now is that I want to include you in that process
So we can both find another way
I think you deserve that much
Don’t you

i uh
idk my way was good until u ruined it so
like
uh
idk
r u gonna punish me until i say yes or something

I dont see any need to
I’ve relied on that too much I think

its ok Goddess

…What was that?

WAIT SHIT THATS A TYPO
i mean like
look its just
it was wrong 4 Her to uh
hit them
but if She did stuff like that 2 me thatd b good so
i mean everything She did was good
i
UGH OML
Y R U LIKE THIS???

Like what

u just
whenever i talk 2 u my head ends up hurting
its not even supposed 2 do that
just go away ok
n go kill all ur thralls or w/e
im gonna go text Caitlyn so she gets here tmrw morning
so i can release her
not cuz u told me 2

I can give you some space
I need to get back to that home analysis anyway
Let me know if you need anything

yea yea
n ill do ur stupid fledgling bar thing ok
just like
later
just to prove u wrong

I’m happy to help

uh yea
=|
thanks or w/e
ttyl