Dear Diary,
I'm just waiting, now. Tense, horrifying. Most of me is screaming about this being a horrible idea, but Mary has the address, so it's ultimately just too late. Whatever happens now,
Dear Diary,
Sorry about the abrupt ending there. I just got interrupted by my new Mistress.
I make it sound so menacing. She said that right after I wrote this, even, which means it's completely true. Because She said it. Oh Satan, it’s so incredible feeling like this agai
Er, New Mistress says she didn't know my old Mistress made me say that, and she thinks it's really funny for some reason. I don't think I'm capable of understanding why right now. Being enthralled again is just reminding me about how I exist to serve Mistress, and Lilith, and Satan, and how hot it was when She made me drizzle my blood into sigils that further sealed and profaned me, and how unbearable it is that every night I continue to exist is a night she will never see. The eternal scar on which I build my soul burns with lust, so there’s no need to remember anything else.
Actually, Mistress says I shouldn’t act like that, so nevermind. I can’t believe how hot it is to be dragged around like this. It feels like my soul is turning inside out, but also like I can and should be made to forget I have a soul at all. It would be so hot if New Mistress made me think totally different things, too. She says She’s more gentle, so I’ll probably just be made to cuddle Her a lot, and I'll love it so much, especially if I hate it. I really hope I hate it, actually, because it’s so hot when my preferences and needs get unceremoniously overridden. I hope I hate it as much as I hated the idea of feeling like this again. Maybe more, fuck. I really really hope I hate it. But I won’t hate it, because
OK, I'm thinking this might've been a mistake? I just wanted you to see how cute you are like this, but WOW you are way more fucked up than I thought you'd be! Still cute though. I really wish I could keep you like this… but I TOLD you I'm good to my word! Plus there's your silly little timer, so, y'know… not that I wasn't gonna follow through, obviously, but… hehe, it's, I guess it helps.
But oh my Lilith, you’re SO cute, though, Luma! You’re just bowing to me, praising me with your silly hair bun and all your silly bracelets and earrings and stuff. Even your silly nickname is cute! Bright cute chewy little Luma, like my fun guys from Mario. And your blood tastes SOOOOO good, too, super spicy and warm and sweet. It’s gonna take forever to get sick of it.
Ah, and you’re humping my leg and whispering prayers now… I can’t hold back much longer. So I guess I’ll just have to go finish you off! I can’t fucking wait.
Talk to you later~ :3
Ha… I never thought it’d be possible to get sick of someone’s blood, but… well, I’m done. I hope. It took me a few days when my Goddess turned me, so I guess I’ll be waiting a few days! Good thing you gave me a week, huh?
Um… yeah. I’m kinda weirdly not horny anymore so… sorry for writing in your diary I guess? Like, it belongs to me right now, but I’m supposed to just release you immediately, and then you’ll probably go back to being your weird old stuffy self who cares about it being yours. Even though you’re obviously way happier being a thrall just like humans always are. I don’t get it, but whatever.
Left you with a tonnnn of bite marks, by the way. Have fun with that :3
Ugh, would you just wake up already!? You’re REALLY starting to freak me out. Dragged me out into the middle of nowhere, wouldn’t let me bring any of my thralls, just… UGH. Why’d you have to be like this? Why are you STILL being like this!?
You’d better not be dead. If you turn out to be dead I’m gonna dig my way into hell and kill you myself. Or maybe I’ll just get really sad, but whatever! You shouldn’t make pretty girls worry like this!
Seriously, I’m getting really stressed out. Thanks for getting me those yummy AB- blood bags, I guess, but there’s NOTHING to distract me out here! I’ve been spending half my time sitting around sexting my thralls and the other half watching TV. There’s not even any games! Who the hell has a TV without any consoles?
There’s nothing good on, either. I’ve mostly just been watching a bunch of those terrible TV movies where a housewife gets enthralled by some guy doing his worst Dracula impression. Or sometimes it’s a lady doing her worst “you” impression.
…Come on, nothing!? That would’ve been the perfect time for you to suddenly sit up and just, like, LOOK at me, like that way you do. But no, you’re just gonna lie there being dead. Freaking me the hell out.
I gotta drop this for now or it’s gonna start feeling weird.
Timer’s halfway out. You’d better wake up soon. I know I can just get the key you left in your stomach or whatever, the one I wasn’t supposed to know about yet, but… I mean, what, am I gonna just tear you open and hope you’re already dead yet? You’re SUPPOSED to be done already, I think, but like… I dunno, everything around you is just so fucked up. You’re lucky you’re so cute.
“Oh wow, I’m happy I meet the vampire’s notoriously discerning standards, in that there is blood inside me.” You’d probably say something like that.
Also some guy from your college wants you I guess. He won't shut up about it, won’t just fucking SHUT UP about it, but these things take TIME, you know?
No, yeah, diary was a bad idea. Putting it away for now.
Dear Diary,
I was dead. I was dead, but She brought me back. I speak now only for Her grace. I think now only for Her blessing. I owe Her my life; it’s only natural that my life is now Hers.
My undeath. She is insisting this, and I must agree. I… I never believed I could be this devoted. No scrap of resistance remains inside me; love, obedience, and a desperate need to learn take its place. I only write now as She bids me.
She has already removed whatever foolish scaffolding I left behind that would deny Her. My long-dead girlfriend’s name was Corina, and as such the lock has been removed. I feel precious little about this development. My Mistress, my Goddess, my Everything, has held the rest from me, for now; I feel little about this as well. She left the hypnotic trigger to release the rest before turning me, and it is Her right to choose when it should be used.
To speak of my own experiences with my new form would do Her a disgrace. To speak of anything else is a waste of time and effort. She is everything. She must reshape me, brainwash me, torment me until I can no longer hold on to whatever vestiges of resistance may escape even my own notice! She must destroy me! She must
Oh my LILITH Luminita. How are you so— so LIKE THIS?
I wasn’t even trying to tease you, mostly, I just thought you’d probably want this for your stupid research or whatever. I thought you were gonna talk about stuff that wasn’t me, like, a LITTLE bit, but… I mean, you don’t have to be so devoted, okay? You don’t… I mean…
Look, you’re so fucking cute like this, it’s unbearable. You don’t even smell like blood anymore and you’re STILL adorable. So cute. So cute! Um. But you keep, like. Begging me to hit you? And brainwash you and stuff? And like, you know it wasn’t actually bad that my Goddess did that stuff to me, right? And she didn’t even hit me! I told you, she only hit her thralls, never me, but that doesn’t matter anyway. Because she was a perfect Goddess! MY GODDESS. And she’s not gone, either, not really. Physically, maybe, but she's still with me. I can feel it.
So like, stop? If I want to just keep you like this, it’d be good. You’ll like it. You’re LIKING it, okay!? Your stupid trap’s done, you can know about that lady your mistress took from you again, and about how she made you two fuck all the time without even recognizing each other. Which, by the way, really hot? Can I say that? I mean, you liked it, right?
You’re praying now. It’s so fucking cute and hot and… and… and would you just SHUT UP about brainwashing? I was clinging to my humanity! I was in denial! She had to take drastic action, okay? And she didn't even wipe me, she only actually wiped the brains of her thralls, and again, it doesn’t matter. I’ll just…
I’ll just have to show you.
Oh nooooooooo :c