Stoica
Mary's Diary, 11 June 2025
by xtravisage
Tags:
#cw:noncon
#D/s
#epistolary_story
#hurt/comfort
#lesbian_vampires
#transformation
#urban_fantasy
#cw:abuse_mention
#cw:blood
#dom:female
#dom:vampire
#erotic_horror
#f/f
#hypnosis
#hypnotic_gaze
#memory_alteration
#mind_control
#multiple_partners
#pov:bottom
#pov:top
#sub:female
#supernatural
#trans_main_character
#transgender_characters
#vampire
#worldbuilding
Dear Diary,
Just another night. Another stupid night of waiting around for people in stupid medical gowns to give me a stupid tiny little SIP of their blood all night. I don’t know why I’m putting up with it. I don’t know why I’m WRITING about it. I don’t even know what’s HAPPENING!
Like, yeah, obviously I’m showing Luma that she’s full of shit and I can totally participate in this boring lame horseshit if I WANT to. Obviously. But that should’ve been enough after one night, and this is the third! And this study FUCKING SUCKS.
No one trusts me. They all treat me like I’m gonna bite them at a moment’s notice! And like, yeah, I totally would with some of them, but it’s not like they all have to brandish their little silver knives and shit at me! Some of them are MEN!
Bleh. Now I’m thinking about having to bite men for this. BLEH.
If my Goddess were still here, She’d probably be ashamed of me. And like YEAH YEAH I know “I’m right here” SHUT UP Luma SHUT THE FUCK UP, but I mean the real Goddess. Her. I’m supposed to be better than this, like She was. I’m supposed to hear Luma whining about how no one knows anything about vampires and REMIND her that that’s a freaking good thing! I’m not supposed to be here. But that fucking BITCH always gets her way, right?
Honestly the weirdest part is she’s barely around for this. We get different rooms at the DIC (LMAO) and we have different people fucking sneering over our shoulders all the time. Although for some reason, even though Luma told me I was gonna be working with some guy from her department whose name I don’t remember, instead I got put with that old lady she was too much of a weakling to just fucking enthrall already?
LINDA, that was the name. She’s weird, so fucking high-strung it’s unreal. Kinda cute though. She’s, like, a yummy-smelling A- cougar, but she’s also got this softer side, even if she’s never showing it to me? But she also tells me not to tell Luma she’s involved in this, so I guess maybe she’s secretly into me, even though she constantly tells me to keep away. That’s kinda cute too, I guess… But it’s not like I’m gonna take her anyway. She’s Luma’s, obviously. Just gotta get Luma to fucking GET OVER HERSELF enough to see that.
It’s all this weird little dance. They're just a couple of weak pathetic little humans, hehe… All obsessed with stupid lame boring human stuff, always going on like ‘oh, MARY, but hurting your thralls is WRONG’, and ‘oh, I TOLD you, I’m just doing this to FILL IN for your REAL overseer’. I’m better than them. Better, better, weak, weak, weaaaaak…
…But then why the hell am I still going along with all this?
Dishonoring my Goddess… acting like a total embarrassment to Her… WHY CAN’T I STOP. I’m not like this. I keep waking up with the taste of Jessica’s blood on my tongue. STUPID. Humans aren't that important. I don’t even… Why does it have to be wrong! Why does it have to be wrong!? Why doesn’t my head work why why why whyyyyyyyyyyyy
Diary. FUCKING diary. It’s like you’re crawling under my skin. I’m supposed to be the one doing that. I did it with Helen, like literally sometimes lmao since she always asked for it, but now she’s GONE and every time Luma opens her STUPID WORTHLESS PATHETIC HUMAN MOUTH I just can’t get the words out of my head and I just
just
Oh Lilith I’m crying
Why did she make me say that
Why did she make me let them go
She’s trying to steal my thralls, right? Or maybe just turn them all crazy, like her? Turn ME crazy? Crazy enough to fart around in a room with YUMMY HUMANS just to find out if their homes are freaking homes? Crazy enough to pretend Goddess wasn’t perfect? Crazy enough to let Goddess brainwash
FUCK. NO NO NO. Goddess REAL GODDESS not Luma. Luma goddess isn’t perfect she’s stupid and annoying. It’s bad when she brainwashes me it's good when Goddess brainwashes me! It's good! it’s good it’s good it’s good it’s good IT’S GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD
Diaries are stupid and boring anyway. Just making myself sad. I’m gonna go do something fun instead, like drink yummy yummy blood, and there’s NOTHING you can do to stop me, so don’t even try. Nothing’s gonna make me as much of a sadsack goody two shoes as her and that’s FINAL.
So shut up.
-Mary
Wow, this is great… Now I am obsessed with the idea of mary / linda. Like what if they just had completely normal sex. Omg.