Religious vulnerability research

• Abrahamic religion is sufficiently complete, with the expected lack of results.
• Leaving denominations which emphasize personal understanding over ceremony out of scope, as they are inherently fragmentary and typically lack relevant rituals anyway
• Satanist groups have given mixed responses. Didn’t reach out to Neo-Nazi ones for obvious reasons. Positive experiences with some local pseudo-satanic occultists, who were very patient with me as we attempted their blood rituals
• “Evil” rituals, curses, etc have no effect, positive or negative. I must admit, some part of me had still believed Violet about this
• Religion and cultural practice become less divided in many places, complicating matters
• The use of garlic and silver to ward evil is cultural, mythological, and religious, in different measures.
• Possible other things may be relevant without invoking ‘God’ or similar
• Past data focus on garlic and silver may be owed in part to American cultural bias of participating vampires. Unsure how to account for this
• Potentially relevant observations encountered in investigations:
• found some ofudas irritating to the touch, though only those made of unusual materials
• more bothered by the dreamcatcher in my bedroom recently. Isolating for normal shifts in sentiment towards dreamcatchers difficult; testing would require proper outreach to Ojibwe groups. Removed the dreamcatcher for now
• the Amish horse refused to let me near it. Perhaps it sensed me? Or perhaps it is a tempermental horse
• some local religious facilities, temples, etc were mildly uncomfortable to enter; often these were diasporic in nature, places where a people feel ‘at home’ perhaps
• placing a coin in my mouth per the ancient greek practice engenders a certain sense of suffocation. Indistinguishable from anxiety about having a coin in my mouth. Recommend when replicating to confirm the coin's metal composition beforehand
• Speaking of metals, it's only silver. Other similar metals commonly seen as ‘pure’ don't count
• Spilled whole-grain spices on the ground at a temple and felt the urge to count the grains as I returned them to their source; I may just be autistic
• Further study is likely to be unhelpful and deeply chauvinist without consultation with various theological experts. Frankly, this is a low priority. I’m abandoning it for now

Charisma research

• Finished moving all relevant voice recordings to safe at undisclosed location; my and Linda’s hard disks have been sanitized
• No further research in this area will be conducted at this time
• Expecting notice from Dean’s office in case of any copies discovered
• Review of ‘body language analysis’ literature inconclusive
• No new information regarding vampirism appears to relate to the pseudoscientific nature of this discipline
• Unfortunately a comprehensive review of past interviews for signs of relevance is impossible, as they were interviews with vampires
• Systematic confirmation one way or the other seems unlikely
• Personal control over charisma has increased observed TTI (time-to-incoherence) by a factor of five
• Perhaps control can become second nature but presently it still requires active effort
• Linda, as ever, deserves commendation for her help with testing; not mentioning other participants for privacy reasons

‘Home’ obervations

• Completed environmental panel of various ‘home’ and ‘non-home’ environments. Results inconclusive
• statistically significant differences in temperature, audio distortion, electromagnetic radiation, humidity, and light in ‘home’ environments compared to ‘non-home’ environments; all effects can be accounted for by obvious mundane explanations
• Could not initially review audio taken from N's home, due to psychological block; block was released when N invited me into her home
• This may indicate a connection between ‘home’ and ‘charisma’, as both persist in recordings
• relation to visual unrecordability of vampires unclear
• More experiments necessary, avoiding earlier mistakes
• Include indoor and outdoor locations evenly for both ‘home’ and ‘non-home’ groups
• Attempt blind test of ‘home’ recordings— can I reliably distinguish them without knowing in advance?
• Include in environmental panel vampiric assessment of location ‘feeling like a home’
• Attempt to include assessments from multiple vampires if possible
• Long-term project: observe the same location, furnished identically, before vs after it is inhabited.
• Identify onset rate of ‘home’ status
• If possible, isolate precise differences and test reactions to isolated data
• Said object is uncomfortable to imagine even now. Cause unclear

Blood flavor research

• Further mundane feeding has lined up with existing framework— likely biased by framework existence
• No aspect is ready for publishing. I welcome anyone who can debunk personality as a factor and will assist heartily (heartbeat notwithstanding)
• Revise AB notes
• P₂ phenotype of P1PK seems to grant a sort of ‘inversion’ effect. May also relate to Lutheran system ‘shift’
• More experience of non-thrall blood, may be detecting subtle taste differences
• No difference enthralled vs not when drinking from N; begetter's thralls share flavor which N doesn't
• Shared flavor is something like an unripe fruit, a very sweet one. May correspond to begetter's personality
• Should soon have opportunity to taste one of begetter's thralls while not enthralled, may help confirm
• Begetter could confirm the reverse by drinking from N. However, this is impossible

Enthrallment

• ‘Release’ tactics approaching viability for general use
• Self-contradiction is a concern, preventing direct release “by command”, but things can be excised methodically in trance
• Perpetual split between not lying and not telling the truth; the finalized theory must not include any notion that it is ‘impossible’ to release thralls, because it is, when done properly, requiring hypnosis, and some memory adjustments
• Begetter feedback indicates clear documentation is necessary. Methods may be simplified in future
• More exploration necessary on notion of releasing humans to something rather than ordering their release directly
• What are they being released to? The universe? Themselves? God?
• Increasingly concerned with questions of permanence
• even ‘released’ thralls might perhaps only believe themselves to be released so deeply as to manifest it
• ‘Release’ still requires manipulations and lies I wish to avoid
• Ontological proof of ‘released’ thralls being identical to their former selves seems unlikely
• New project: While expanding my pool of willing donors/‘friends-with-benefits’, attempt metabolic panel with before/during/after samples to find any changes
• Preliminary tests on N have shown some difference though little so far
• Compare any differences to isolated ‘home’ and ‘charisma’ samples

Current Status is optimistic. If things continue on this trajectory, I believe I might have some workable hypotheses quite soon.