hey so like
how was it w/ caitlyn earlier 2night?
shes been talkin about it
ig she rly liked it?
whatd yall get up 2

lumaaaaa

Apologies I was busy
Caitlyn was lovely
I made her dinner and then, well
I made her dinner
And then you know the rest

uh no i dont?
whats the rest

Did she not tell you

uh i mean yea ig
but she was super sleepy
she seemed rly satisfied tho
whatd u do that was so special

I can’t speak for her
But perhaps it was related to my treating her like a person with needs rather than a walking blood bag

oml yeah yeah
u always say that

Has it ceased to be true

idk maybe u could actually prove it?????
im good 2 caitlyn u know
ik ur mistress was like super horrible or w/e but im not like that!
we fulfill each others needs
caitlyn gets to submit n i get blood! =3
and its really cute n sweet n its soooooooo hot!!!
whats the problem?

ugh answer me! >=(
ik ur gonna go on abt free will but like
humans dont care abt that n u know it
they just get scared of losin blood or w/e
but they NEED 2 submit n obey
they get scared but its what theyre sposed 2 do!
they cant resist it
its so cute when they give in luma
and kneel

lumaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I’m back
You want to know what I did?

yea?
thats what i said?

I cooked her something as I said
And while she ate, I talked to her
Discussed her work
Did you know she’s an engineer?

yea ik what my thralls do luma
she like sketches gears n stuff
and theres like this girl @ her work that she hates or something?
but also shes totally crushing on them

Jamie yes
I suppose I can award you credit for knowing that
Our conversation was more detailed but also more immediate
I already knew she was an engineer but I learned many things about her work
In time the conversation turned to sex though
As it always does
Thankfully we had already discussed over text how long she wished to be enthralled for and so forth
She has an early meeting tomorrow we needed to plan around that
I don’t suppose you would have caught that?

oml maybe? w/e
u talk abt her job like its her whole life
shes got other stuff

Of course
We discussed that after the sex, after I released her
The sex was incredibly cathartic by the way and she is delicious as ever, such a different A+ from Natalie
But like with Natalie I insisted on cuddling afterwards and cooling off with unrelated talk
It was surprisingly easy to restrain myself
My affection towards her was helping, somehow

happy 2
hear it
good girl

?

restrained urself

Oh
Thank you I suppose

shes not urs
shes mine
u know shes mine ur restraining urself

Ah

thats good ur good
haha

Feeling territorial?

o dont act like u arent

I suppose that would be a lie
It is quite the rush showing her how she should be treated

oml i give her aftercare 2!!!
i cuddle her all the time its like my fav thing 2 do w/ her
n she loves me 2 n she goes home every nite n hopes ill call her over n jerks off 4 hours thinkin of me <3

Aftercare usually should take place as a means of cooling down from the altered state
Not reinforcing it

well we spend lots of normal time 2gether too!
thats most of the other stuff tbh
did she tell u abt how we watch movies 2gether?
shes way better 4 conversation than popcorn~
and wb the drawing of me she made?
shes sooo good at art i think abt that pic all the time

She told me about her art, I suppose
Her abstract landscapes
And her windowsill garden, and her model train collection, and a recipe she wants to try feeding me to see if it tastes like anything
And her Star Trek opinions
She’s quite the textured woman
Literally and figuratively
Though she hasn’t had much time to pursue any of that lately
Perhaps owing to the ‘jerking off for hours thinking of you’
Which is surely an organic impulse

u r soooo sarcastic its unreal
like yea its not organic thats why its hot?
lmao what would a gmo human even look like? Like a frankenstein or smth

I suppose it would be
It… is hot
Humans, not Frankenstein
They are
Adorable little prey animals
But even so
You have to let them live their lives

they R hot lil prey animals…
thats so cute of u 2 say

I would have been shocked to see myself say it
But if I don’t work with the instincts, then…
Well, perhaps they would explode and overtake me
Or perhaps I simply want an excuse to consider humans cute
Because they are

oml UR cute! ur finally startin to get it

Don’t push it

Yeah yeah
ig i see ur point
maybe i should talk 2 her more
i didnt know all this stuff

That isn't the problem

oml what
whats wrong w/ talkin 2 cute girls?

‘Cute girls’ that you unilaterally control

yea

…Even you aren’t this dense

but ur just as fun 2 tease as ever~

How charming
Listen
Disregarding for a moment the obvious ethical objections
And speaking from experience
As long as she is your thrall she will be unable to open up to you this way

lmao shes plenty open actually =)

She’ll dismiss whatever isn’t pleasing to you
She likely already holds an elaborate framework in her mind built for the express purpose of figuring out what she can say that will please you
Her life revolves around this
She will relentlessly massage the truth like some internet chat-bot

ok ill just say her interests please me
whats wrong w/ that

She’d still curate it, even unconsciously
Just as I did, just as you still do
All for the sake of being good
Less a conversation than an inquisition

um ok yea ig cuddling my hot gf is like the spanish inquisition
ur so boring
predictable

Almost as predictable as your excuses

ugh whateeeeeever

This is what we’re dealing with Mary
If you want to know what Caitlyn actually wants, actually prioritizes
You have to release her

ur always all on abt what humans ACTUALLY want
but like
what she WANTS is 2 serve me!
does it matter i made her want it?
human wants r weak n silly n u can just override them
it makes her so horny when i say that <3
like be fr what was the first thing she said when u asked abt her interests

You’re proving my point
Caitlyn is sleeping satisfied now and she’s lost nothing but her blood
She can still name her interests
She can still be honest with me
At least as much as before
She’ll remember that
That I was interested in an actual relationship with her
That you were only interested in her scent
Her blood

i care about more than just that!
im not just a wild animal

Keep saying that
I’m sure it will matter when death catches up with you
When your thralls finally uproot your control
And they need an outlet
And they come to me
Your thralls all my adorable willing blood banks

SHUT UP
ILL FUCKING KILL U

…I got a bit carried away

haha yeah uh
nbd
why do u think im gonna die anyway?
im immortal silly

We’ve been over this
Because hunters occasionally get lucky
Because you insist on following in your begetter’s footsteps
Right into the earth

no it was ur mistress who slept in english dirt or w/e

You know what I mean

my Goddess was strong n good n perfect
ur the 1 who keeps gettin attacked by hunters

Hunter, singular
A special case
Hopefully they’ll stop now that they have that used blood bag with the recording of what happened

“hopefully”

I only get so much attention because of my blog
You dont
But you took Jessica kicking and screaming because she happened to be on the same streetcar as you
And then Helen came trying to save her girlfriend and you took her too
And then there was the incident with that private eye who came looking for them
What might have happened had his aim been a touch to the left?

ugh yea yea w/e
idk maybe that was kinda reckless?
but w/e its not always like that
i wasnt forceful w/ caitlyn
i met her @ a lesbian bar n told her she was pretty
and she got all sweet n told me i was beautiful
i told her we should get a drink 2gether hehe
she didnt stop me
she looked me in the eyes
she got so blank n still n cute!
u know how she gets
she just followed me back to my place

I do
So you took her unceremoniously then

i took her out of trance first!
and she was soooooo adorable n disoriented
begged me to fuck her
and then i showed her my fangs n told her SHE was the drink n she almost came hehe
also she got kinda scared or w/e but she told me 2 do what i wanted w/ her
she was so fucking hard!
wouldnt stop humping me the whole time
giving up her will
made her rly rly happy
i told her she was mine forever mine mine mine
and she got sooooooo excited
she told me it was a fantasy she always wanted
she lives it every day and i did it! me!
did she tell uuuuuuuuu that?
abt how hot it is 2 see her blank face n all her cute slutty clothes n how she loves bein my silly lil tool 2 do w/ as i please??????

So she woke up dazed and confused, under your charisma, under your body
In a haze of horny anxiety
Not in the bar and unsure how she got to your home
Under those conditions, she said yes
And then you bit her rewiring her brain fundamentally
And now she relentlessly sings your praises and claims she always wanted it

yea!
i mean i know ur tryin 2 be sarcastic but idrgi

Well then
I suppose you have nothing to worry about
So why not release her
And give her a day to think about it

but then she wouldnt obey me

Yes that's the idea

but if she could disobey me she might not let me have her blood

She lets me do so
She wants to
Isn’t that so much more adorable

i mean
look why r we even talking abt this
she told me 2 do what i wanted
i did

If she’s the same woman I drank from earlier she probably begged you to keep drinking from her without regard for her own well being
To let her die for your sustenance
Did you do that?

no!
i dont actually want 2 hurt her
i love her

Exactly
A self-destructive request made only when she isn’t thinking straight
Something you have a responsibility not to honor
At least not without further discussion
Are you seeing the similarities here?

she was thinking very gay actually

You know that’s not what I meant

OML whatever!
i took her out of trance b4 asking
isnt that good 2 u?
ur always looking 4 something

It is good
I’ve seen much, much worse
But it could be better
You could be better
You know that don’t you

so what i cant do things 2 humans even when they ask me 2?

It’s a matter of judgement
You and I have been in states where we don’t know what’s good for us
You still are, frankly
Some part of you must know what I’m talking about
Even if you can’t recognize it

i know whats good 4 me
sex n blood n yummy fun girls
i know whats good for caitlyn 2 ur right abt that
she likes serving me n sustaining me
it makes her cum
so whats wrong?

Perhaps I’m framing this poorly
The onus is on her to know what’s best for her
But she needs space to make that decision
If this is what’s best for her let her decide that
When she has space to decide
When she can say no and mean it

but her purpose has been to serve n sustain me 4 like 6 months
i dont wanna take that from her! =(
my Goddess didnt take that from me
She knew i wasnt ready 2 make my own decisions yet
She didnt want that 4 me
i dont want it 4 caitlyn either
i dont wanna hurt her
u know i dont like hurting thralls

Yes, it’s wrong to do so
I’m glad we can agree on this

i mean like
its wrong for u or me yea

Mary…

like i dont like it but
my Goddess totally hit her thralls all the time
whenever they were disobedient
or talked over Her
or just 4 fun
She never hit me tho
i mattered more 2 Her
they were just humans

And you always felt this way?

i mean
She told me it was okay
i didnt want to but it was ok for Her She said so
She made me accept it
im a predator luma
She showed me that

She brainwashed you

yea!
it was good
She was so good
so perfect
obvs itd be bad if i did it bc i dont want to
and i dont want u doing it either

Because it’s wrong

well yea i mean

It’s wrong.

uh repeating it doesnt make it any less fake?

No, Mary
Listen to me
I know what you’re feeling right now
I know how hard it is to accept this
But it’s wrong to hit thralls
Her influence inside you will try to remove that thought
Don’t let it
I’m here for you
You can do this
You think it’s wrong to hit thralls
In general

yea!
it would be wrong 4 me or u
or most people ig
ig im glad She didnt make me
it was
it was good She didnt make me
but that was just bc She was perfect
She always knew just what 2 leave 2 me!
thats what made me such a powerful predator
just like Her

Of course
Of course you’re still too brainwashed
You think you’re powerful?
You can’t even stop worshipping some failure of a vampire who’s been dead for 10 years
It’s pathetic
You’re pathetic
The way you cling to your control over others
Compensating for what she forever deprived from you
You know what I think?
I think deep down you can see I’m right
I think some part of you never stopped fighting
Perhaps too weak to reject her now
But perhaps strong enough to recognize something else
To find someone better

no
no one can be better than Her no one no one nonoe

Someone who can help you

no one no one no one

Perhaps that’s why you turned me
Ever since that first time we met you could see my potential
You couldn’t escape her
But deep down you knew
You could be mine
You had to be mine

i cant be urs haha
r u stupid or something

My good girl
My fledgling

I’m my GODDESS’s good girl!
NOT YOURS

Exactly
Your Goddess’s good girl
My good girl

what
no
no i mean Her
my Goddess

I don’t see any other Goddesses here
No one living, anyway

well i mean obvs were undead haha

Wouldn’t it be nice, Mary
To have someone call you a good girl again?
Unconditionally? Without hurting you?
Someone who doesn’t get herself killed?
Someone who actually cares for you?

She didnt hurt me
She didnt
but w/e look i
i get it ok?
i thought about what we were talkin abt the other day
u were right
Shes… ig Shes probably dead
so She doesnt have any power over me
i dont need to be urs im not anyones anymore

She doesn’t have any power over you?
And yet she gets to be exempt from the rules you set out for anyone else
And you act exactly as she wanted you to
And I’m betting you still won’t tell me her name

well yea
She told me 2 never call Her by name

You deserve true independence
True love

oml i just want 2 worship my Goddess because like
i like it!
it feels good
She made it feel good
She brainwashed me n it was good

It’s barely worth more than what you do to others
No less false
Can’t you see that?

whatever! i like it
i always have

She probably told you as much
“You'll like it”
Just like you probably told Jessica
Just like you tried to tell me
Before I stopped you
Because I have heard it so many times before

well i do!
She was right
thats not even the brainwashing probably!
ppl can b right abt things
She was special bc She was always right n never wrong

She was special because she drained your blood
You're certainly not always right but Caitlyn would never hear that
Caitlyn would believe 2+2=5 if you told her to
It’s the same thing

ooo thats hot
i should tell her 2+2=5
itd b so cute 2 see her face get all twisted up n confused tryin 2 make it make sense

Quit deflecting
I can see the pattern now
You deflect whenever we draw close to unpacking this
Perhaps anger can break through
It helped me
I hate the hold these monsters have on us after they die
If she was alive she could simply say “I release you” and you would agree with me
Doesn’t that frustrate you?
With even a second of free will you’d be able to see what you’ve lost
You’d hate her
But she denied that to you
Because she didn’t care about you
She could’ve told YOU 2+2=5 and you’d be insisting it to this day

i dont think id hate Her
id miss Her
She was perfect She brainwashed me

Mary, please
It’s okay to feel this way. I certainly have
But try to notice this
The way your train of thought strays when you try to push back
That’s what she used to hurt you
Feel that force
You don’t have to fight it, not yet
I can’t imagine how difficult it would be for you
And I am forever thankful to you for that
And I know I can’t convince you just yet
But the force is there, inside you
The first step is to see it
To think of her words and find those lingering wisps guiding your thoughts
Pushing you towards agreement
Even if you think it’s good, just notice it
The way it deprives you of so many options
Notice the options it doesn’t let you take
Please do that for me

i
i think i see it
Her authority
my place
i dont need options luma
this is just better
my Goddess is just better

I’m flattered

no i
stop that

Of course
It’s not a bad thing to have options Mary
Regardless of which is better
You are a person and that means you can do what you want even if it’s bad for you

i dont want to disobey my Goddess
caitlyn doesnt want to disobey me
its bad to disobey
i dont want the option its bad

Is it?
Why

it could be inconvenient for her

Of course
You don’t have to believe me now
But notice the force pushing these conclusions
Consider what conclusions would be available without that force
Consider the force inside Caitlyn pushing the same way
What conclusions she might reach in freedom
Perhaps she’ll be like you
Lost, confused, wanting nothing to do with the source
Perhaps you’d both come to me

is this a plot 2 steal my thralls

I already have access to your thralls
I’m not going to cuckold you Mary
That’s not the point

u talk like its the point sometimes

I…
Am dealing with many new feelings
In a perfect world you would have been able to help me with them
In this one they need an outlet
If I can demonstrate the problem with your approach it’s a bonus

my thralls r mine 4ever luma
they’ll come back 2 me

Perhaps Caitlyn will
But you'll never know unless you let her go
I know you love her in the way you know how to
I am more familiar with the feeling than ever
But, well
You know what they say to do when you love someone

ig itd b kinda hot…
seeing her come crawling back…

Mary
I cannot express to you how hungry it makes me

wow~
ok maybe
i could try it

For a day

why a day again?

So you do not pounce on a moment’s confusion as proof that she actually hates having agency

she would be so confused…
will she b ok w/ that?

This hardly seems the time to start caring
But if she truly hates the freedom so deeply she can ask
And you can rub it in my face forever

okay!
show me the trick tmrw nite
and ill try biting some1 new~

Someone who you actually ask without coercion?

oml fine yes w/e

Wonderful
And then you’ll let that person go

mmmmmm i guessssssss
tho if she was rly pretty i could just keep her n make her super needy n loving…

And violate her trust, and attract hunters…
And lose the chance to see her crawling back

but what if she doesnt

Then she doesn’t

but what if im starrrrrvinggggggg????

This isn’t a useful conversation
If you’re serious, message me tomorrow night
I would love to help you
If you will let me

ok fine
if itll shut you up

Good girl

HJKGFDHJGKFDHJFKDHJD
STFU

I’ll talk to you then

ok