CTRL-Awake
by ColdCorvid
Gasping, tears bursting forth from its eyes as the light burned its
eyes. Writhing on the soft, cool ground of the cell as it trembled. How
long had it been? WHERE had it been. Why couldn’t it
remember? Why did it feel like it didn’t want to. That it didn’t have to
remember. After all, it was here now, in this place. The padded walls
are familiar, no longer eliciting feelings of fear and confusion. They
felt right, this all felt right to it.
It felt the cool tears streaking down its cheeks, chest still heaving as
it sat. Pondering, wondering why they didn’t stop. What was it weeping
for? For whom? For what? Did it matter? When did it happen? It’s head
screaming, careening, searching for an answer before it became silent. A
hum emanating from the walls. Its eyes widening, heart lying still as
its mind was cleared. All the thoughts disappear in an instant.
“7. Rest.”
It heard the voice, the voice that rang out from the heavens of the
brilliantly white light giving it a command. Rest. It knew this command,
and without thinking collapsed onto the ground in a heap. Vision
blurring till its eyesight faded completely as it lay there. Mind empty,
waiting, eagerly desiring more to fill its head.
It heard it. The hiss of the hidden door sliding open once again.
Memories flashing in its head, fragmented, broken memories that it was
allowed to keep. Given permission to perceive the treatment to
come.
A hand grazing against its limp form, drawing a line from the center of
its chest to the underside of its chin. Its heart pounded, eyes blindly
flickering about despite the lack of vision available to it. It
desperately longed to see, to observe, to latch onto the voice. But that
was all it was allowed to know. The gentle touch leaving it longing for
more, hungrily, desperately reliving the sensation again and again and
again.
Its heart still slowly thumping away in its chest even as its mind
raced, desperately longing to ask for permission. To beg, to cry out in
desperation for release from the tantalizing mystery. And yet it was
denied as the hands continued to draw a path across its chest,
squeezing, poking, prodding and pushing against its chest as it lay
there. Heart coming to a stop.
Its heart slowly crept towards a stop, mind slowing along with it as it
felt its mind become hazy. It felt nice, the hands seemingly reaching
into its chest. Holding onto its heart and slowly holding it, cupping it
with a gentle grasp as it slowly came to a complete stop. Darkness
creeping into its mind, its body becoming numb, mind racing in final
moments. A final vestige of self preservation that desperately tried to
insist on a fight… It would not disobey. It would rest.
. . .
It awoke again. The voice, the touch, had long since gone. Its vision
was restored, slowly as it sat back upright. It had obeyed, it hope it
had performed. The tears had returned. It did not understand why. Why
did they return. Why did it care. Why had they left. It had obeyed. It
was a good asset. 7 was a good asset. 7 was a good asset. 7 was a good
asset. 7 was a good asset. 7 was a good asset . . .