Girl In Your Dreams

Not A River In Egypt

by Cherry

Tags: #cw:depression #cw:gender_dysphoria #D/s #dom:female #hypnosis #transgender_characters #urban_fantasy #but_a_weird_sorta_furry #dom:nb #furry #like_mostly_how_real_life_furries_are #sub:female #sub:male #trans_egg

CW: Discussion of dysphoria, transphobia and self-denial, slurs
 
I used to be embarrassed about writing chapters that were basically just chatlogs but fuck it it's that kind of story
HypnospacePsychonaut: Lucas I need to ask you something weird
No.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Lucas have you ever considered whether you might be
 
No.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Hope you liked meeting the Cule! Everyone thought you were rad. Say, do you think
 
No.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Have you ever felt that
 
No.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Lucas, this isn't gonna be easy to hear so I'm just gonna come straight out with it: I think you're experiencing
 
Absolutely not.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: fuck it lucas you have dysphoria lol :C
 
Why was this so godsdamned hard?!
 
How could she bring it up in a way that didn't feel like she was diagnosing him somehow, like she was forcing an explanation for his misery on him that he hadn't asked for. What if it made him feel worse? What if she accidentally "transed" someone who wasn't trans, like all the fucking idiot TERFs were screaming about? How did she have the right to tell Lucas anything about himself when she'd witnessed it all with no permission from him?
 
AlternianDidact: Myrrah, what does dysphoria feel like?
 
Wait, what?
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Lucas I literally cannot express how glad I am that you asked me this question
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Because I was like, really struggling over how to bring up the subject of dysphoria
 
AlternianDidact: Art imitates life, I suppose.
 
AlternianDidact: Wait, is that the correct metaphor? "Speak of the devil" doesn't feel appropriate in this context.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I didn't want you to feel like I was forcing a diagnosis on you
 
AlternianDidact: Myrrah stop fucking pre-apologising for shit you haven't even done or said yet, we've got more than enough of that with me.
 
AlternianDidact: Sorry.
 
AlternianDidact: Sorry.
 
AlternianDidact: I didn't mean to snap.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Lucas you are fine and thank you for setting me straight (only time I'll ever be LMAO)
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Now stop apologising for speaking your mind :P
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: So you wanna talk dysphoria, huh
 
AlternianDidact: Yes. I need to know.
 
Myrrah took a very long, deep breath, closed her eyes, and exhaled.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Okay like I'm not usually a fan of summing incredibly complex things up into neat little statements

HypnospacePsychonaut: But what if you could look in the mirror and get an incorrect answer
 
She thought for a moment about how to explain that further.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: straight up you look at your reflection and you're like "nah that can't be right"
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: who the fuck is that i see
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: humans are quite distinct from other creatures in that almost universally we learn to identify ourself in mirrors from an early age
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: only like certain birds, dolphins, whales, elephants and certain higher primates can do that
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: (and MAYBE cats and dogs but the research is inconclusive)
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: it is kind of a warning sign when you look into a mirror, understand that it is a mirror, but do not fully recognise what you see
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: do you obsess over a feature of your appearance?
 
Lucas closed his eyes. Grey shadow.
 
AlternianDidact: The grey shadow underneath the skin on my face. No matter how hard I shave it doesn't go away.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Hmmm yeah that's because you have dark hair and pale skin, so the hairs are partially subdermal
 
AlternianDidact: It won't ever go away. I can't get rid of it, no matter how hard I try.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: You realise you can get laser for that right
 
AlternianDidact: What?
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Laser hair removal. Like that will not only get rid of the shadow, it'll kill the hair follicles so your beard won't grow anymore
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: It's like one of the most common procedures trans women get because you don't need a prescription or medical approval
 
Fuck, fuck, fuck, wait, that felt like she was hinting too hard. Divert course!
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Heck it's one of the most common cosmetic procedures cis women get too!
 
AlternianDidact: Cis women get facial hair?
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: lmao it's 99% the reason the treatment even exists, they sure wouldn't invent it just for us transes or the twinky boys
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Tons of older cis women get it during menopause
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: But like even supermodels in their 20s get the whiskers sometimes, hormones are a minefield
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Literally every transfemme in the cule has had it done - me, Val, Katie, Jessie. Heck, Riley's not even transfemme and they had their face lasered when they started T cause they didn't like how the beard felt
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Riley's such a twink lmfao
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: But yeah like the grey shadow is not something you have to live with, you can literally destroy it with lasers
 
There was a long pause before Lucas' answer arrived.
 
AlternianDidact: And that'll make this... misery stop?
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: are you only miserable because you have a beard shadow?
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: You're asking about dysphoria and that usually goes a little bit deeper than a single cosmetic feature
 
AlternianDidact: Do you think I'm trans?
 
Oh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck. This was happening way, way quicker than she'd prepared for. She had to say something reserved, moderate, uncontroversial.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: when you first looked at my pictures, you had immediate intrusive thoughts about "chaser shit"
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: why was that?
 
She slapped her head so hard it echoed off the walls of her bedroom. Myrrah, you stupid piece of shit, how is that in any way reserved, moderate and uncontroversial?!
 
AlternianDidact: Because I've
 
AlternianDidact is typing...
 
...
 
AlternianDidact is typing...
 
AlternianDidact: Because I've looked at pictures of trans women before.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: And that makes you a chaser how?
 
Lucas hung his head.
 
AlternianDidact: Because I was sexually objectifying them.
 
Myrrah raised an eyebrow, not that anyone else could see it.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Uh were you though
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Were you ACTUALLY though
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Were you going into our DMs and saying "hey shemale whore gimme some of that tranny dick"
 
AlternianDidact: Christ, of course not!
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Were you obsessively replying to every single picture of us about how much you wanted to fuck us
 
AlternianDidact: No!
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Lmao then I fail to see how you are in any way a chaser Lucas
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Look trans women have this unfortunate habit of getting fired from our jobs due to shitty transphobes and then not getting hired again because of shitty transphobes
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Which means a lot of us have to turn to sex work because the one thing that trans women will never be short of is people who want to jack off to us
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: And there are a huge number of issues with sex work! Don't get me wrong!
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: But you are NOT a chaser just because you find trans women attractive Lucas, you are simply correct
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: We're hot as fuck lol
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I don't even need to ask if you know that there's a person with real thoughts and feelings behind those pictures
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I know you do
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Being a chaser (or sexually objectifying in general) requires a total lack of respect for trans people as people
 
Lucas grunted irritably, not wanting to talk about this subject anymore.
 
AlternianDidact: You still haven't answered my question. Do you think I'm trans?
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I don't think I can answer that
 
AlternianDidact: Oh bullshit. You've seen inside my head. You're trans, you know what it feels like.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Lucas, no
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I know what being trans felt and feels like FOR ME
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Even having seen your memories I met you three weeks ago and change
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Even having seen your life story I cannot know you anywhere near as well as you know yourself
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I can only hint at the answer
 
AlternianDidact: Then start hinting.
 
Myrrah raised an eyebrow, grumbling to herself. "Right, yeah, okay, this is how he's talking now."
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Getting mighty fucking terse there Lucas but I understand you're stressed so I forgive you
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Let's put it in the easiest possible terms, the question every trans girl gives to every potential egg
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I put a magic button in front of you
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: This button, if you press it, turns you into a woman instantly
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Absolute transformation, down to the chromosomes, down to what's between your legs, your bones, voice, facial structure, the whole smack
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: And all of your friends and family accept you so automatically, so much as if this was who you always were, they don't even notice
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: And you can press it again whenever you want and go back to who you are now, no harm no foul, nobody will even notice
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Do you press the button?
 
AlternianDidact: Yes.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Hmmmmmmmmm pretty much no hestitation there 😉
 
AlternianDidact: Well, you said it yourself. There's no consequences. Why wouldn't I see what it's like?
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Okay but you understand that even simply by doing that, you are admitting you'd want to see what being a girl is like
 
Wait, goddamnit, he'd been tricked! She'd turned it all around on him.
 
AlternianDidact: Curiosity is a natural human instinct!
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Lucas it feels like you're busy inventing elaborate excuses as to why your specific brand of "hmmm wanna try being a girl" is not transness
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Which ~HINTS~ at something
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: But okay, let's say the button can't change your chromosomes and I'm sorry, you can have a working vag but you'll never get pregnant
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Everything else you get, and you can still change back instantly if you want
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Still pressing the button?
 
AlternianDidact: Yes, probably.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: You're not worried that you wouldn't be a "real" enough woman to sate your curiosity?
 
AlternianDidact: I don't particularly want to get pregnant, and anyway, lots of "real" women can't get pregnant.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Okay, so the button can't change your voice either. Still press it?
 
AlternianDidact: Maybe.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Okay, the button can't change your genitals at all. Voice, face, tits and skin you still get, but the junk is still what you have now. Still press it?
 
AlternianDidact: I think so?
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Aha! So "having a dick" is not a dealbreaker to "being a woman"
 
AlternianDidact: Well you're a woman and you have a dick.
 
Myrrah snapped her fingers, held out her hands, and shimmied a little. She immediately felt ridiculous, given that there was no-one else in the room to witness her victory dance.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I am very pleased to see you're so open-minded about gender identity!
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: so despite my manly-ass john cena jaw and being tall as fuck and having a dick and my voice kinda not passing because voice training's so fucking hard lol
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I am a woman?
 
AlternianDidact: Of course.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Ah so what is a woman?
 
AlternianDidact: I don't know.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: No no no that's not a good enough answer
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I have XY chromosomes and a dick and a square jaw and TMI warning I had to shove pills up my ass to get decent tits but I'm still a woman
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: So what defines me as a woman?
 
AlternianDidact: Because that's how you choose to define yourself.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: So could you define yourself as a woman?
 
AlternianDidact is typing...
 
...
 
AlternianDidact is typing...
 
AlternianDidact: No.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: LdflskkldlfkdsskldflksdflkdfKL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
 
Myrrah quite literally slammed her face against the desk. This dense motherfucker!
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: WHY NOT
 
AlternianDidact: Because there's no way I could make it work!
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Lmao Lucas nearly every trans girl says that about herself
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: What makes you so uniquely fucking manly you think estrogen and laser hair removal can't touch
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Fuck I can trust you with this
 
HypnospacePsychonaut sent a file: the_darkest_and_dorkest_of_days.png
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Doesn't exactly look like a fucking supermodel does he
 
The photograph depicted a young man with greasy, short-cropped brown hair, barely an adult from the looks of things. He had a sullen expression that he seemed to have forced into a facsimile of a smile, one that most certainly didn't reach his eyes. He dressed in dark, very baggy clothes that hung off his body, making it difficult to determine anything about his build. Lucas remembered doing that. He looked like a total stranger.
 
AlternianDidact: That's you?
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Yeah that's me
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: 2010 was a dark fucking year my dude, I had not yet accepted nu metal was never coming back
 
AlternianDidact: That can't be you.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Don't look at the hair or the skin or the band shirt that was tragically irrelevant even at the time
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Look at the jaw, look at the eyes, look at the nose
 
She was right: here was the strong line of Myrrah's jaw. Without the septum piercing it looked a little different, but that nose was unmistakeable. And those eyes. He'd know those green eyes anywhere.
 
AlternianDidact: Holy shit.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Look at this fuck-up, he's never gonna make it, he'll never look like a girl
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Except guess who he turned into
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I hate this photo but I also love it
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I hate to imagine I ever looked that way and was that miserable but I also feel so much love for it because I know what's ahead of him
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: And I can use it to prove to other people like him that radical change is possible
 
Lucas immediately reached for an excuse.
 
AlternianDidact: But that's different. You were, what? 2010, you must've been in your early twenties. I'm 31.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Do you think Katie looks like a girl? That she "passes?"
 
AlternianDidact: Of course, I wouldn't even have known she was trans if she hadn't told me.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: She only started transitioning 2 years ago
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: And she's a year older than you
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: And she said some of the same things to me that you are now
 
Lucas immediately reached for a diversion.
 
AlternianDidact: You STILL haven't answered my question.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Do I think you're trans? I'm not answering it because I don't think the answer will help you
 
AlternianDidact: Tell me.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Okay
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: In as much as there are patterns of behavior that I have seen in other people who came out as trans
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: You match those patterns very closely
 
AlternianDidact: Then what's wrong with me?
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: What do you mean, what's wrong with you?
 
AlternianDidact: Why don't I feel trans? Why can't I admit it to myself?
 
AlternianDidact: If I'm trans, why do I keep finding excuses not to be?
 
Myrrah sighed, and launched into an essay she'd given a dozen times on Tumult.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Okay this is gonna sound like a BUCK WILD tangent but I promise it's relevant
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: You said the Matrix was one of your favourite films
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: You know Morpheus says that as a general rule they don't pull people out of the Matrix as adults
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Because they can't cope with the shock, they've become dependent on the manufactured reality to make sense of existence
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Well the Matrix is actually a giant trans metaphor and the Wachowskis literally said so
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: But like it's also a metaphor for any insidious oppressive system
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Propagandized false consciousnesses are specifically designed to create dependency
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Gender is basically such a bedrock foundational aspect of how we perceive the universe that we don't even realize it
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: You can't see yourself as anything other than a boy or a man because you have been told your entire life that's what you are by EVERYTHING
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: The clothes you wore, the toys you played with, the books you read, the classes you took at school, your parents, your friends, EVERYTHING
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: If that cornerstone of your identity falls apart what's left? What else did they lie to you about?
 
She gave a glance upwards to the anarchosocialist flag hanging on her bedroom wall. Basically everything, really, but let's get to that one later.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Gender's not a fundamental fact of the universe it's a classification system we use based on a bunch of arbitrary shit
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Bird chromosomes don't work the same way human chromosomes do
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: In the 18th century the height of manliness was to wear a ton of makeup, powdered wigs, tights and high heels
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Indigenous societies had words for genders that literally couldn't be translated into English, there was no even remotely matching word
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Do people think that if we found alien life out there in the galaxy, that had evolved on a completely different planet, under completely different conditions, that it would perfectly reproduce the same specific sexual dimorphism we see in humans?
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Shit that doesn't even happen ON OUR OWN PLANET
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Bee sexes are basically "does work, lays eggs" "does no work, lays special eggs" and "does no work, does not lay eggs, fucks all day"
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: We force them into "male and female" because of extremely rough resemblance to human social roles
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: it's kind of on the nose that "does no work, does not lay eggs, fucks all day" is "the male"
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Sorry bro, you were born a drone, you are condemned to servitude in the Royal Manslut Harem for life
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: But this is all just stuff we observed and decided to call male or female based on our own standards
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: You think a crow cares about human definitions of gender? Lmao no it's gonna go caw caw and steal your french fries like a boss
 
Lucas felt a little bit more nausea welling up inside of him as each line appeared on his screen.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Once you realise that it's basically a fucking scam everything falls apart
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Like if you can just decide to be a woman what makes "woman" meaningful anymore?
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: And what made your previous identity as "man" meaningful?
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: When people with vaginas can be men what does it mean to be gay?
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: There are answers to these questions but not easy or quick ones
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: A world with rules, even BULLSHIT rules, is less scary than a world without them
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Or suddenly EVERYTHING is arbitrary
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Why do new years start on January 1st? We decided they do, except the US financial system disagrees, because a fiscal year begins on October 1st
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: What is money actually? Do nations actually exist? Why does a day have 24 hours?
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Your brain has been conditioned to think these immutable truths, and when you try to pull out one of the biggest ones, it rebels against you
 
It hurt, not being able to just hug the poor boy.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: and like, the simple truth is, Lucas
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Transphobes act like you being able to decide you're a girl will bring about the death of society
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: And they want you to believe the same so that you're too scared to ever do it
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: But in the kindest possible way
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: you're not actually that important
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Accepting yourself as trans will not affect the world, it will keep on keeping on just as it always did
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: What it will affect is YOUR life, YOUR happiness
 
Lucas waited almost ten minutes before replying. Myrrah was starting to worry he'd just run off entirely when the answer came.
 
AlternianDidact: Then even knowing all of that, why can't I just say to myself "I'm trans?"
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Because it would obligate you to do something about it.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: So long as you can just be dysphoric and miserable and suspect but never actually acknowledge why, you have plausible deniability
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: When you just hear a distant cry you can tell yourself "hmmm well that could just be a bird" and you can walk quickly in the other direction
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: But once you hear "help, help, somebody help" you're making a decision to continue ignoring it, you're being asked a moral question
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Not doing anything about the problem becomes an active choice rather than a passive act of ignorance
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: And I know that you are not the kind of person who would allow yourself to commit injustice
 
There was another long pause, and when Lucas finally answered, it wasn't with words Myrrah wanted to see.
 
AlternianDidact: Hypnotise me.
 
AlternianDidact: You do hypnosis, right?
 
Her response was immediate and visceral.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: No.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Whatever you're about to ask, don't
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Because I will not
 
AlternianDidact: Hypnotise me. Make me stop having this hesitation.
 
AlternianDidact: I've spent 31 years trying and failing to know myself.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: What, and you want someone else to do the final work for you?
 
Myrrah's hands shook as she typed.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: Lucas, I promise, cross my heart and hope to fucking die, that if YOU work out that you're trans, I will do WHATEVER I can for you
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I will find some way to get you hormones quicker than 5 years on the shitty British trans healthcare system
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I will find trans people in your area to help you with anything you need help with
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: And if you ask for it I WILL hypnotise you to deal with your dysphoria in the meantime
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I will move heaven and earth to help you
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: But I will not, CANNOT go into your thoughts and drag the answer out of you, because it will not be your answer
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: It will be the answer you think impresses me, or pleases me, or that you can tell yourself that I forced on you
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I have an ironclad rule and I have never broken it, I do NOT hypnotise people to help them discover their gender
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: This is the ONE thing I cannot help you with
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I cannot tell you the answer even if I think I already know it
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: You have to decide for yourself
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I refuse to take your personal identity into my hands and decide that I know better than you who you are
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: This isn't a kink, this isn't a fetish, this isn't some fun roleplay, this is your innermost soul
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I am willing to decide, with someone's consent, what they wear, how they act, who they fuck and how they feel about all of that, that is fun kink headspace stuff
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: I am ABSOLUTELY NOT willing to decide who they are and who they should be, that is too big a responsibility for anyone else to be entrusted with
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: and you could not possibly give informed consent to that in any form I would accept
 
She thought long and hard about she was about to type.
 
HypnospacePsychonaut: But I might be able to do something else for you.

Maybe we can finally start getting into kink scenes again

glitch-mouse 2023-01-07 at 23:16 (UTC+00)

i finally started reading this story… and promptly binged it until i was caught up!

And maybe i’ve just hit Peak Trans, but jeeze, tag me if you’re gonna write about my filthy it/its rodentwife-self and my dorky trans polycule! :P

Everyone is gloriously written, and i love them all, and i hope our eggfriend cracks soon! (it seems like they’ve been almost-there for quite some time, and just need a bit of help with that last bit of shell.)

and if Luc is anything like the traumatized egg whose dreams i accidentally hopped into before we started dating… i bet they’ll make for an adorable fox!

calledbyflowers 2023-01-06 at 08:49 (UTC+00)

i have cried so much reading this story. thank you so much for writing it and being able to share it. i knew it would be special by the tags but did not expect to be so moved.

alunardragon 2023-01-04 at 05:55 (UTC+00)

I just shouted “No! Fuck!” in response to realizing this is the most recent chapter and i now have to wait for an update. Suffice to say, I am quite enjoying this story holy shit. Thank you for writing it!

EtceteraSystem 2023-01-03 at 10:55 (UTC+00)

LMAO, literary begging to have the decision to transition taken out of your hands. But sure, not trans!

Love Myrrah’s speech! It do be like that.

Our approach to transition was kinda backwards from this: Don’t ask “am I trans”. Instead just look at individual things, change thenm, and see whether that feels good or not. Want to get rid of facial hair? Do it, see how that feels. Wondering what getting seen as female is like? Find some queer friends, dress up, get addressed by another name, see what it’s like. HRT, yes or no? Just try it.

None of those meant “I’m trans”, though we got to the conclusion anyhow, obviously.

That approach made transition a lot easier for us, and also works reasonably well for bringing up trans topics to others (though we wouldn’t say it’s better necessarily).

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