March 10th,

I’ve been having a lot of fun. Reconnecting with old subjects and learning where life has taken them in the last couple of years has opened my eyes to a plethora of new experiences I’ll forever hold dear. It has also given me lots of ideas for new recordings. In the last forty-eight hours, I’ve written three scripts I can’t wait to share with you all. I don’t want to ruin the surprise just yet but let me say that one of them is something you guys were asking me for years before I took my break. Are you excited yet? I hope so, because I am! Keep an eye on this blog throughout the month because there are plenty of surprises around the corner.
In other news, I’ve decided to host an interactive Q & A session on my server on the 16th. It’s a Saturday and the session will begin at 10 pm EST. Everyone is invited to attend - joining the server is free! You’ll be able to ask me just about anything about my work and the things I like, but I reserve the right to refuse to answer any question I deem too personal or offensive. If you’re respectful and kind, you’re sure to have a good time because I love to interact with people but if you’re thinking of showing up just to make a mess of things, there’ll be no tolerance for inappropriate behavior. My team of Moderators is ready for you and will have no problem banning you if you act like a jerk. Don’t be like that, okay? God knows how many imbeciles we deal with in this life! Be friendly. Be courteous. Treat us well and we’ll do the same. 

March 12th,

Darren followed me on social media today and asked me if he could DM. I said ‘yes’, and we ended chatting for a while. I’m not going to transcribe the entire conversation, but I believe it’s important to share at least some of it. After saying hello and thanking me for my time, he opened with the obvious question,
“Have you given some time to think about the suggestions I shared with you?”
“Yes, I have,” I replied. “I like them all, but you need to understand that some of your fantasies aren’t that easy to pull off.”
“But imagination has no limits. Isn’t that what you said?”
“Human imagination is limitless, yes, but hypnosis doesn’t work without a certain level of trust and familiarity, and we’re still getting to know one another. It will take a while before we’re able to reach those heights, do you understand?”
“Yes, but it’s possible, right?”
“With enough time and effort, yes, it is. If the energy is there, then good things are sure to follow. We just need to take it slow for now. Do you think you can do that?”
“I think so, but it’s hard.”
“Hard how?”
“I keep thinking about that first time and how I was so convinced nothing out of the ordinary was happening. The way you messed with my perception of things makes me want more. I’m even dreaming about it.”
“Your excitement is natural but try not to get too hyped. If you’re always on the edge, it will warp your expectations and taint your experiences going forward. Like everything else in life, things like these require a bit of finesse. People who get too carried away sometimes end up hurting themselves and we don’t want that.”
“It seems you speak from experience.”
“I do. I’ve met many people over the years and watched them grow and change, sometimes not always for the better. I’ve seen beauty beyond compare, but also the horror of addiction and self-destructive behaviors. We try to make our fantasies as glamorous as possible, but life often isn’t. As I grew older, I’ve realized how important it is to take a few steps back and breathe now and then. That’s the only way we can make sure to not get caught up in the moment and let everything else go to waste. We’ll have fun but not too much fun, okay?”
“Okay. I’m looking forward to it. Are you available this week? If you are, I’ll pay for the session now and then you tell me the date that suits you best.”
“I have a Q & A session planned for this weekend and I’m busy working on some new content for my website. Next week, perhaps?”
“Fine by me.”
“You should come.”
“What?”
“To my session. The server is open to everyone, and you can meet other people too. Some of my Domme friends will be there as well. What do you say?”
“I say that’s an intriguing proposition.”
“Then are you coming?”
“Am I allowed to say no?” he asked with a winking emoji at the end.
“You’re always allowed to say no until the day you decide you don’t want that at all,” I typed in return, matching the energy he was giving me. It felt right, you know? Darren and I click, which is something I can’t say for everyone.
Yes, I’ve had my fair share of disappointments and personal failures. Most of my friends don’t like to talk about this, but I’ve always been open about it. We try our best to make things work but sometimes, the connection just isn’t there and when that happens, it’s a mess. I love what I do because I don’t see my clients as just clients. We have a rapport, and a certain intimacy. We’re friends but we respect each other’s boundaries when pursuing the pleasures of the mind. Pure transactional relationships or things like “Fuck you, pay me!” don’t work for me. To play with your mind, I need to understand you as a person first and then use that knowledge to create something special that works for us. Without it, then what’s the point? I hate it when things fall into patterns and the joy of exploration becomes mindless routine. That’s not fun, and it isn’t hypnosis or femdom to me, but if you want to know more, then come to my Q & A. I’ll be waiting for you, guys.

March 16th,

It happened, and if you missed out, it’s your loss! I should be in bed by now, but I have so many things I want to say about tonight. I better do it right away before sleep and dreams carry some of those memories away. It was a good night, one of the best and with no incidents.
Okay, there was one, and on another occasion, that could have soured my mood, but not tonight. One of my “failures”. I hesitate to call him that because he was the primary responsible for things not working out. 
This guy - let’s call him James - fooled me well when we started playing. He was kind, generous, and charming, and complemented his words with actions. He said he wanted to explore the depths of the mind through service to women and that of all the Dommes he had met, I was the one that made his heart race. In hindsight, I should have realized that everything he said seemed too good to be true, but in my defense, I wasn’t as experienced as I am today, and his interest seemed genuine. He always paid for his sessions in advance and tipped me afterward. He was also always ready to send me something from my wish list whenever I was feeling down. He had everything to be perfect but…
The first time I said no to something he wanted to do, he flipped out. Gone were the pleasantries and the kind remarks he gave me, replaced by tantrums and unwarranted demands. His true self was revealed, and it was one born of entitlement who thought that, just because he paid me, he now owned me and my emotional responses. I called everything off, but he insisted on being pushy and disrespectful as if I owed him anything. It was quite a turbulent affair, one that never ended, it seems.
Here’s the thing, even though I severed all ties with him, he resurfaced under a different alias but the wickedness in his heart remained the same. And this makes me ask: Why do some of you guys do shit like this? Are you so insecure that you need to stalk and harass Dommes just because you don’t get your way? And do you think that approaching us again in disguise will win our favor? It never will because you’re doing it from a place of deceit and not showing any contrition for your past acts. It’s both illogical and obnoxious, especially if we’ve already been inside your head. We know you, guys! Sometimes, we know you better than you know yourselves. No matter how much you try to hide your true self behind colorful avatars and broken speech patterns, you don’t fool us!
James tried his luck, lost, and got kicked out. He’ll show up again in a couple of months but for now things are calm again. The moment he left, the party started.
There were hundreds of people on the server tonight, both old and new, and everyone was happy when I logged in. Some of my old subs were the first to greet me and their enthusiasm when I talked about the things I was working on was palpable. Among other things, they were interested in new brainwashing techniques so when I shared a sample of my next file, the place lit up like the 4th of July.
When the Q & A started, Darren wasn’t around, but he was kind enough to text me to say he hadn’t forgotten but a late crisis at work had got in the way. Still, he would do his best to show up as soon as possible.
He appeared right at the tail end of the session. All the main topics had been exhausted and people were starting to leave. He was disappointed he had missed so much, but there was nothing he could do. Apologies weren’t necessary for having his priorities straight, but he offered them anyway, and that was when I knew for sure he was one of the good guys.
“Hey,” he said after I agreed to a voice call. “This is not how I wanted the evening to go. I’m sorry.”
“That’s okay. How are you doing? You seem exhausted.”
“I am. Work was crazy and as always it was up to me to take care of all the problems that appeared. Sometimes, it feels like I’m more of a manager than the real one.”
“I’m sorry to hear that, Darren. If you’re tired, then you should get some rest and we can talk another day. Nothing is more important than your well-being, not even femdom hypnosis.”
“Oh, I know that, but I wanted to ask you something and this felt like the right opportunity to do so. I hope you don’t mind.”
“What is it?”
“I looked through your website, read everything you’ve written there but couldn’t find the answer, so here goes. You said you like hypnosis to be surprising, but what is hypnosis to you? If you had to describe it for real, how would you do it? Can you tell me, please?” he asked.
You know, that’s not the first time I’ve been asked that. Technical explanations are one thing, but we all have personal definitions, ideals that reflect what’s in our soul. It’s not always easy to put them into words, even for someone who writes and speaks a lot like I do. I was surprised by the question but even more so by the way he spoke. His voice was trembling, and I could almost hear his heartbeat on my headphones. He was nervous but that nervousness came from a place of honor and peace. Unlike conniving James, there was a child-like innocence in his words, so let me tell you what I said to him.
To me, hypnosis is like a river. Have you ever sat by one, watching the water? When you look at a river, what do you see? perpetual change even if the surface is tranquil. There’s always life bubbling in rivers, small secrets you can’t see yet know they’re there. There are ripples and bubbles and a cauldron of life everywhere. It may seem like the water is unmoving, but that couldn’t be further from the truth. The stream is there, small currents that ebb and flow, and you can play with them. You can throw a pebble at the crystalline water and see it leap, creating beautiful circles along the way. You can splash it around and watch the sunlight filter through the drops as they fall back on the river again. You could drop a leaf or a paper boat and smile as they float downstream, and so many other things.
Even if the currents are strong, there’s something relaxing about looking at a river. It’s like the essence of the water itself becomes a part of you. You look at the river and the river looks back, sensing your presence and either acknowledging it or choosing to ignore you. You can change the river, alter its course, or clean it up. You can also pollute it, abuse it, and try to make something of it that it’s not.
Hypnosis is like that. It’s a flowing river, and a state of mind that changes all other states of mind. You welcome it the same way it welcomes you, introducing variation and change, even in the quietest of scenarios. It’s up to the mind to color its perception and assign it value. The more the river flows the stronger it is. The more you think about hypnosis and want it to work to influence you and your thoughts the more you make it happen. And if your thoughts are bad and your heart isn’t in the right place, the change doesn’t happen, but the flow never stops. We never stop thinking and we never stop feeling. That’s just the way things are.
I always see a river when I think about hypnosis. I see the ripples, the surface and what’s underneath. I see the subtle splashes and those moments when the water begins to evaporate. I see the never ending flow that follows the path of infinity. When the river meets the sea, that’s what you get. When hypnosis works with the receptive mind, that’s what you get too.
And just like I see these things, so can you. You can see both the tranquility and the turmoil, and the reflection of your drooping eyes on the sunlit water. You flow with my words, lulled by them, as they tell you to go to sleep, rest, and wake up energized the morning after. The river is in you, in me, and everyone else. As it moves, you relax… so relaxed… so relaxed… Follow the river to the things you desire like a peaceful night and a warm tingle on your hands and feet. Sleep. Sleep. Sleep. You want to sleep and flow with me. Sleep.
Aww… if you made it this far, it’s because you needed this, right? A little moment of respite, a pick-me-up at the end of a long day? Rest now. You’re safe and always be safe as long as my voice is in your head. Sleep.
Until next time.

((to be continued))