So November 29 is my birthday, and I had a plan to hang out with several friends and invite them all to bully and fluster the shit out of me. Then the HypNovember fic for that day was going to be essentially just some free association while I was super fucked up and fractionated (i.e. the results of the day).

• Most of this will be focused on the trancy stuff, but I’d be terribly remiss if I didn’t start out with just how lovely it was to have a chance to hang out with so many wonderful friends on my birthday! I felt especially honoured by a few folks who I know were quite busy taking the time to come hang out with and bully me <3
• Just like… being tranced and getting fucked with while being seen and people seeing me in trance and such was really nice, and knowing that there were folks there who particularly enjoy seeing me in trance was extremely flustery. Particularly as I had my subject play partner there who hadn’t really seen me in trance before and I knew she was very eager to see what I was like in trance…
• Many people commenting on how frickin’ easily I go into trance.
• At one point, a play partner had me start repeating a mantra we’d used before that I am starting to get conditioned to, and all the other tists present kinda picked that up and had me continuing to say it, and I was literally unable to even think anything except the mantra and that was excellent.
• Having a few folks there whose existence is pretty much enough to fluster me. Literally, one person came into chat and said “Happy birthday!” and that was enough to make me blush.
• Apparently this https://www.color-hex.com/color/9d5b68 was the colour of my face. The highlight is that someone took the time to find the hex code for the particular shade of red just to fluster me. 
• I got to bully my subject play partner a bit, myself, and everyone agreed with me about how adorable she is when flustered~ That is, until someone gave me a suggestion that my level of blushing/fluster would match hers… bwahahahaha.
• At one point, I was dropped and then several people just took turns adding to the trance, including a suggestion that the voices would all sorta blend together into one voice, and it didn’t do exactly that, but I definitely felt delightfully slow and sluggish around figuring out who was talking and what was happening. 
• Ohgod I almost forgot about the drooling… people sure noticed that I was drooling possibly because I intentionally wore a shirt that I knew would show it if I did and sure commented on and encouraged it in a delightfully humiliating way.
• Overall, I just… I haven’t felt that loved, appreciated, valued, and just like… like I have something to offer and add to people’s lives just by being me in a very long time. It’s a really nice feeling, even if it is a bit uncomfortable in its unfamiliarity. It was a really really lovely way to spend a birthday!!