I blinked, becoming aware of my surroundings. I was sitting on a straight-backed chair, immobilised. One of my arms was limply hanging down and my other hand was buried inside my pants. I noticed that my chest was exposed, clothes pulled up and open until my nipples were out in the open, but I didn't remember how it happened. In front of my face was a spinning black and white spiral. It swam in and out of focus as my eyes blinked involuntarily, but I had no control over whether they were open or closed. A heavy, lethargic feeling prevented me from moving in any way.

I couldn't remember how I got here, what events had led up to this, I only had this vague sense of… Well… I'm here now. This is happening. 

I could hear faint static as a recording started playing into the headphones I was apparently wearing. I remember thinking that maybe I was wearing a VR headset, maybe that was why the spiral filled my entire field of vision. But that thought was eclipsed by a new feeling, a strong sense of deja vu, of recognition as the recording started playing atmospheric hums and soft beats, as if I had heard this recording before. As if I knew it by heart and I could already feel its effects.

My hips bucked. I could feel dripping between my legs. My hand stirred in my pants, a little instinctive jerk of the wrist. I gasped, I could feel cool air against my nipples as I breathed. My hand started to masturbate. Again, I realised that, even though I didn't know how long this had been going on. My hand started masturbating again, without my conscious input or control. That hand just obeyed the programming.

My other hand jerked to life and weakly reached across my bare chest to tweak my nipple. Sensitive circular motions that drew my attention back to the spinning spiral. In this moment, I realised what was happening. The sexual pleasure made it harder to think, harder to resist. I was being brainwashed. 

Pleasure coursed through me and my vision blurred. Soon I would lose consciousness again. I would exist only as submissive and open, being programmed and rewritten. This was just a moment of lucidity between loops…