In The Garden of Eden

A small conversation

by JustALittleOne

Tags: #cw:CGL #D/s #f/f #Human_Domestication_Guide #pov:bottom #sub:female #transgender_characters #cw:death #cw:partial_blindness #dom:internalized_imperialism #hurt/comfort

Amity was sitting in deep thought. Sometimes it came to her, that she needed to do that. She would usually find a good spot on top of the tree hab, with a good view of the world around them, for what good it was. Perhaps the blotches of green were enough. She just… Stared. And thought.
 
"What's wrong flower?" Of course, Hyacynthia's voice came after she didn't answer the call for dinner. The Affini wove herself through the leaves and branches, creating enough of her torso to appear sitting next to her beloved. "Aren't you hungry? If there's something on your mind, you can tell me."
 
Amity hummed, and leaned against her guardian. She let the stress of heavy thought leave her somewhat, but not enough to derail it. Just enough to express. "I think… You've been very kind to me. And sometimes it hurts to know other florets don't have the same kind of bond we share."
 
"But all love is sacred, is it not?" Hyacynthia retorted, letting an arm and a few vines wrap around Amity's shoulder. Pulling her in a bit closer for some comfort. "All love is something to be cherished. And held dear. And there's so much to give to others. Did something happen? You don't usually bring this topic up."
 
All the white floret could do was give a small, sad smile. "I… Went more on the overnet. Read things about the earlier days of the Protectorate. You know, just after the Accord dissolved." She began to explain, through her eyes betrayed her calm expression. "Reading about so many florets and their owners, people who put their stories out there for the universe to see. So much love to revel it. And yet… More than once, you find instances where what the Affini do is just… Unjustified. Claiming pets with no volunteering or any hint of danger to anyone, or any other good reason. Domesticating people who, if the Affini just stopped and thought for a bit that what they're doing is wrong, could've ended as absolutely normal citizens of the Compact. Or worse yet… Forcing their love on those who don't need the help. Who were fine, and didn't really need the plant rulership to just drop in on their lives and take their independence from them without a second thought." She paused for a moment. It was tough to talk about. "And I know, there's a lot of stories of rebels and other miscreants of many sorts who do need to be domesticated to be better for their own sake. I should know." She gave her mistress a knowing look, though with eyes darkened by grief. "And yet… It's not fair. They're wrong. The Everbloom never wanted this. Love is meant to be shared, not enforced. If you force it on someone… It's not love anymore. It's just ownership."
 
After she finished talking, a long, long pause was shared between the two. Neither plant nor human had much to argue. Not until Hyacynthia finally broke the silence with two well thought words.
 
"...You're right."
 
Amity looked at her with just a hint of bewilderment. "So you agree?"
 
"To an extent, yes." The elder Affini nodded. "When I was young, in my very early blooms… We didn't have interstellar travel. We didn't have domestication programs and rebel fleets to subdue. Not did we have the technology we do now. All we had… Were beeples. And the beeples were more than happy to be cuddled senseless and spread our spores, seeds and pollen around." In the end she only shook her head. "And something tells me that even so many cycles, after so much time… We never truly adapted to the complexities of the universe. And this time I should know." A barely audible chuckle came from Amity. "No, instead… We just enforced our simplicity upon everyone around us. Which is easy when every single civilization you meet is far less technologically advanced than you." To that end, her floret gave a simple hum. "I suppose the most apt comparison would be the ants, that roam this garden. How you convinced me to let them in I'll never know, but that's besides the point. Compared to them… We are giants. Their society has its own rules and structure, and yet by meeting them we project our own values on the tiny beings. If love is good, it means ants must love to be fulfilled right?"
 
The obvious sarcasm of the answer didn't go unnoticed. "But they don't." Amity continued. "They are happy to serve their queen and so what tasks are needed to expand their nest."
 
"And that wouldn't stop an Affini from trying to domesticate them anyway." For a change, Hyacynthia's core hummed with… Shame. "For some Affini, the best you that you can be is what they want to make of you. With no way to deny it."
 
"But… That's. It's bad. That's not love, that's-" 
 
"I know." Amity felt the hug tighten around her, letting her spill her emotions on someone who's there for her.  All while the tears slowly dripped down her cheeks and to her chin. "It isn't. And you're valid in how you feel about it."

Idk why I wrote this. But I felt the need to. So... Here's Amity confronting the horrors of the Compact.

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JustALittleOne 2022-12-07 at 13:46 (UTC+00)

@gentlyfloating I get you, this very complex relationship with the setting is exactly what drove me to write this. And there’s no offense taken at your opinion, to be honest I share it as well. I guess I just needed some way to vent out this frustration is all.

gentlyfloating 2022-12-07 at 08:55 (UTC+00)

I quite liked this, I think, I am not sure like is the correct word, and I do not mean that in a negative sense. It is kind of the… Well, I am not quite sure how to describe it.

Trying anyway: I do not think that I like it, but I don’t mean that in the “not for me” or the “bad quality” senses that people often mean? I mean it in the way that you don’t “like” a sad part of a book, or a harm-causing part of a universe, while still appreciating it and its part in the whole? I find myself mirroring the thoughts of @SleepyTessa in places.

That isn’t even to say that the darker side of the setting is something I would rather avoid reading. It’s kinda one of those “I have issues with it while at the same time…” Well, I’m at a repeated loss for words writing this whole comment words such as “like” and “dislike” don’t really do justice to the whole way I feel about any of these things.

This is important, it acknowledges the… Quite frankly scary parts of the setting- at least, the scary parts that the affini can cause- in a serious and healthy manner (satire can be healthy, but isn’t series), which is… Important. I would be absolutely terrified of being… I suppose the word might be “adopted”, before I was ready, because, nothing could possibly break me (/neg) more than not getting the chance and time to make the decision, even if it the choice is painfully obvious.

I guess that is another part of why it is all complicated to me, I find myself in these character’s headspaces a lot.

Anyway, this update was appreciated, as previously mentioned, even if my thoughts about it are struggling to find their way onto text.

JustALittleOne 2022-12-05 at 15:35 (UTC+00)

@SleepyTessa To be honest… yeah. I have no qualms against people who do address the darker side of the setting, of course. This is, at the end of the day, a kink website where people write erotica, to tell someone that what they’re writing is morally wrong misses the point of writing erotica for some in the first place.

But… I guess sometimes, I read something that makes me feel more empathy than any hotness in the situation, and it hurts. I’m not going to project that hurt on anyone, it’s my hurt to bear and mine to process and deal with. But… It’s hurt all the same, and I guess I needed a way to vent it out without actually pointing fingers at anyone or saying they’re bad for writing something that they enjoy writing.

SleepyTessa 2022-12-05 at 12:52 (UTC+00)

I was surprised to see this story update, but I’m glad it did. This chapter is really, really good. The affini are certainly a positive influence on the universe, but their influence still does destroy. Not as much as it builds, heals, and improves, but it does.

There’s a reason HDG is so closely paired with the dom:internalized_imperialism tag. The affini are imperialist. They are explicitly supremacists - they consider themselves superior, and all other life lesser. The vast majority of the Compact’s population sees it as pure good, but it isn’t. It’s better - better than the Accord, and probably better than any other large interstellar society in the history of the setting - but there is still injustice within it. There is still suffering. There are still those whom the system neglects, and leaves behind. Who fall through the cracks.

Sophonts who could have been happily independent, but were swept into a wardship due to circumstances and allowed, or forced, to bond with their affini guardian. Affini who don’t fit their culture’s ideals of confident, dominant caretakers, who struggle with insecurity about their faults and an expectation of flawlessness. Florets who end up with a suboptimal owner, when a better one would have been available if circumstances had been different.

The affini compact is Good, but it could be better, and in some ways it may be a culture that will not ever improve itself, and which is backed by too much might to ever be changed from without.

It makes one appreciate the importance of always striving to imagine, and make real, a better world. Every problem - no matter how large - can be solved, but you need to be willing to face them before you can even begin doing so.

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