Subroutine Manager
Too Much Thinking
by Etherealust
Crossword puzzles were usually a great way to unwind. I found they were a great way to test my knowledge in a fairly easy environment. Over the years I’d built up a surface level and basic understanding of a wide variety of topics, although there were very few I was actually an expert in. It wasn’t very useful in daily life, but when it came to crosswords, knowing all sorts of random trivia pieces was extremely useful.
But this time? For whatever reason, this particular crossword was utterly kicking my ass.
“Gah!” I slammed the pen onto the table in frustration. The puzzle wasn’t even rated as a difficult one, it was the kind that I typically knocked out in twenty minutes. But I’d spent almost that long just staring at the page, hardly making any progress. “Kay, seven letter word. ‘To be unrestrained and able to do what you please.’ Any ideas?”
Kay poked her head in from the other room. “It’s not like you to struggle with these. Have you tried going topless?”
I tapped my finger on the paper. “No, that won’t work. The second letter is ‘R.’”
“No, I mean you should try taking your top off.” She moved in closer and leaned across the edge of the sofa, peering over my shoulder. “I read somewhere that taking off your shirt can help with brain teasers. Something about improving circulation, I think? You might want to try it out.”
There was a brief silence as I gave her a deadpan stare. “Kay, that makes no sense whatsoever. Also I don’t have blood.”
She shrugged her shoulders. “It makes sense if you think about it. Why not give it a shot?” She pulled away and went back to the bedroom. “And the word you’re looking for is ‘Freedom.’”
I grumbled at myself. That should’ve been an easy one. Maybe Kay did have a point, and I should try stripping down a bit. After all, how could it hurt? The more I thought about it, the more it kinda made sense.
“Alright, fine. I’ll give the stupid idea a shot.” I pulled my top off, and then for good measure, my pants as well. Admittedly, it did feel quite a bit more comfortable. Kay was usually pretty smart about these sorts of things, so maybe she had the right idea after all.
Unfortunately, despite having taken my clothes off, the crossword puzzle wasn’t going any better. Even though filling in a larger word normally would’ve given me a nice edge to move forwards, this time it gave me nothing. All the words were just swimming around in my mind. It was hard to think, hard to keep track of what I needed. Things that should’ve been obvious took conscious effort to figure out.
And that’s when it hit me. It was so obvious, and I felt like an idiot for not figuring it out until now. What Kay had said to me and the way I was acting, it was all connected, and there was one simple reason.
“Kaaaaaay!” My voice had a distinct whine to it, but I didn’t care. Kay wasted no time in coming out to see me, an innocent smile on her face. “I know what’s happening. You can’t fool me.”
Kay’s expression didn’t waver in the slightest. “And what’s that sweetie? Is something the matter with you?”
I shook my head. “The topless trick isn’t working. You should’ve told me that I needed to strip down further.” It was the only thing that made sense. If removing my shirt made me smarter, then obviously removing more clothes would make me even smarter. Smarter-er? I wasn’t sure what the right term was. Either way, I’d be thinking better.
“Aww, honey, I’m so sorry.” Kay’s voice was dripping with sweetness. “It’s just that you’re already such a clever girl, and I was worried you’d get too smart for your own good.” She moved in and sat right on the couch next to me. “In fact, you’ve been thinking about so many difficult and serious things lately, and you’ve been taking on a lot of responsibility. And although I’m super proud of you, you deserve a break. You deserve to relax that brain of yours and just be stupid and silly.”
It meant the world to me that Kay was always thinking about my needs, and planning how to give me a nice treat. She did have a good point as well. “Thanks, that’s really nice of you. And I think you’re right.” Then I gave her a more serious look. “But you can only start after I finish this crossword. I, like, need my full brainpower for this, and I’ve gotta be super smart to figure it out.”
Kay snickered under her breath about something. “Of course babe. Although, if you want to finish faster, I also read that touching yourself makes you even better at puzzles. It’s to do with the way it releases endorphins.” I gave her a sideways glance, and she quickly continued. “Or at least, some electronic equivalent of endorphins. It makes sense if you think about it, right?”
Now that she mentioned it, it kinda did make sense. “Hmm, I’ll give it a shot. Should be, like, super fun in any case.” I slipped a finger down underneath my panties and into my dripping slit. Obviously this was the best strategy to complete a crossword puzzle. It made me wonder why I’d never tried it in the past.
“You really are a dummy. If you wanted me to stop thinking about things, you should’ve stopped giving me tips for becoming smart.” I knew that my orgasm function was still disabled, but I wasn’t trying to cum this time. That didn’t stop me from peeling away the few remaining clothes I had left for easier access. Now that I was fully nude, and touching myself to release my electronic equivalent of endorphins, everything was becoming clearer. Now all I had to do was complete the crossword puzzle. “Three letter word, something used to open doors. Starts with ‘K.’” Already I could tell it was so much easier than before. The answer was right in front of me. “It starts with Kay, which means I have to ask Kay for help.” I turned to face her, a proud grin spreading from cheek to cheek. “Kay, what’s the answer to this one?”
However, Kay didn’t respond with an answer. “You know, I think you’re too smart for this one. Maybe you need something a bit more challenging instead.” She pulled out a different sheet of paper, one filled with complex math equations. Just looking at them was already making my head spin. Addition, subtraction, and multiplication? With some numbers in the double digits? I needed to get serious for this one.
“Oh, you should also know that this is a special type of paper. Any time you get an answer right, it gives you a burst of pleasure. It makes sense if you think about it, since the paper is touching the pen when you write, and you’re holding onto the pen.”
I grabbed the paper from her and tapped the pen against it. “You know, that does make sense.” While I was reading over the questions, I began massaging the tip of my clit with my thumb. “I’m totally going to ace this. Just you watch.”
First question, fourteen minus eight. That was an easy one, since it was just a double, so the answer was also eight. Writing it down sent a wonderful vibe of pleasure through my body, indicating that I was correct. “Ooh, that’s nice. I guess that’s proof I got it right.”
The rest of the sheet followed in a similar fashion. I would look at the super tricky math question, figure out the right answer (although sometimes I had to use my fingers), and then get a warm burst of hot sexiness. Although it was always centered around my pussy, it radiated outwards, and often my entire body trembled with arousal. It felt good. And it felt good to feel good.
Kay was shocked at the progress I was making. “Have you always been this good at math? You aren’t cheating and using a calculator, are you?”
I proudly smiled and tapped my head. “Nope, every one of these calculations is going on right in here. It’s pretty great, isn’t it?”
Kay slowly nodded as well. “I’ll admit, I am very impressed with what’s happening right now. It’s going way better than I thought it would.”
That was great to hear. Kay was almost as smart as I was, so if she thought I was doing well, it was proof of my own success. I went back to the page. In a short moment, another right answer was written down, this time a multiplication question. I knew my times tables well, and I knew that three times four was twelve. Or was it ten? Remembering things took so much effort, and I mainly wanted that sweet pleasurable reward. I wasn’t even paying attention to what I wrote, but it must’ve been correct, since once again that warm feeling blossomed within as arousal rippled through my body.
Although I was content to keep going, it appeared Kay had other plans. “Fuck it, I can’t take this anymore. You’re too cute when you’re like this.” She grabbed my head and pulled it in tight to her chest for a hug. “So cute and giggly and horny and stupid. I do love you like this.” She showered the top of my head with kisses, and I was having a hard time finding the willpower to correct her mistake. “But I think you’ll appreciate this more. Something that lets you think even less, crazy as that sounds.”
I pulled my head out from her bosom. “Kay, what are you like, talking about? You know I’m fine. I just-”
“Drop for me.” The moment she said those words, everything slowed to a crawl. My body slumped in place. Internally my thoughts… slowed. Something was different. I knew this information, but I didn’t have anything to do with it. My mind was frantically trying to rationalise the situation, only with every passing second, it was trying a lot less. It wasn’t important if I wasn’t functioning properly. I didn’t have any reason to give it importance.
“Wha… what’s happening?” It was a struggle to get the words out, since every part of my mind was insisting that I remain quiet. To sit in place, and to drop. I was fighting against it. But why was I fighting against it? It would be so natural to just… be. To let go of my sentience and independent thought.
Kay pulled me in tighter against her chest. “You’re becoming an object for me. Something that doesn’t have to worry about anything, or care about the stresses of life. Something you’ve always wanted but been afraid to ask for. It’s a reward for what a good girl you’ve been recently.” With those words, the final conscious thoughts dripped out of my head, leaving nothing but a blank slate. Less than nothing.
I was still. I was empty. I was awaiting orders.
“Do you know who you are?” It was an open question. But I didn’t need to answer. I knew who I was, but I had no individuality. I didn’t need it. I was empty, a shell, waiting for instruction. Waiting for something to fill the void. Otherwise, I could just stay here, perfectly still. Why would I ever need to move?
“You are Doll. You are my plaything, and your purpose is to obey. Nod if you understand.” This instruction was different. It was a proper order, something containing an objective.
“This unit understands. She is Doll. Her purpose is to obey.” The words felt natural to say. Even though my face was still smothered, I hadn’t been given orders to move. There was no need to move. There was no need to do anything except obey. Why would I do anything else?
Kay wrapped her hands around my shoulders and gently lay my body down on the couch. I made no moves to resist her. “Doll, you’re going to provide a valuable service for me. You’re going to be used for my personal relief. If you understand, nod and then spread your legs.
I nodded. It was easy to understand - I was an item, and items exist to be used. It was simply my purpose. The reason for my being. I spread my legs, giving my owner a perfect and full view of my dripping cunt. Kay was rapidly shedding her clothes as well. It was easy to notice her cock becoming fully erect as she stood over me. “Are you ready to feel good?” I didn’t answer her, and she didn’t wait for me.
Kay thrust her cock deep inside my pussy. She held me down on my back, her arms pinning my wrists, not that I was making any effort to resist. I was her doll. I was simply feeling every sensation wash over me. Strangely enough, everything was much more intense than usual. My head wasn’t clouded with thoughts. I just needed to obey, to do as I was told, and nothing else. No worries or problems to deal with. Only the shaft of my owner pumping itself deeper and deeper inside of me, feeling her weight press into me with every thrust of her hips.
The pleasure was building inside of me. It wasn’t a good thing or a bad thing, it was simply a statement of fact. I was responding to sexual stimuli, and even without showing it, I was letting the pleasure build up at a rapid pace. “Tell me, Doll.” Kay’s voice was deep and husky as she spoke between her movements. “How does it feel? Do you enjoy being in this mindless state? With all your brains gone, is the pleasure replacing everything else?”
I responded in a fairly monotone voice. “This unit feels positive.” It was the closest way to explain the truth. “It is experiencing sensations generally associated with positive memories, and as a result, this unit is in a positive mental and emotional state.”
Kay arched her back, so that our tits were rubbing up against each other. “Fuck, you don’t understand how hot it is when you talk like that. And the fact that you can’t understand it makes it even hotter.” She let out a breathy moan between words. “Tell me, Doll, are you approaching the threshold for your orgasm?”
Internally, I knew what she was referring to. Even if it felt strange and alien to me. “Approaching, affirmative. However, this unit is not currently near the threshold. It will require more stimuli to reach the point where an orgasm would be possible.” I was extremely specific and careful with my phrasing. It wouldn’t be good to tell a lie, and based on prior information, I didn’t know if a climax would be possible. At the same time, however, I wasn’t feeling a strong craving for one. I didn’t ‘want’ anything. If I was simply expected to feel pleasure and hold it inside of me, that would be my purpose.
“Let’s spice things up a bit then. Doll, rise for me.” Immediately my mind snapped back into place. Thoughts were flowing back in, and I was aware of myself, who I was, and what I wanted.
And I wanted to cum.
“Fucking hell! Did you really need to do that?”
Kay laughed, but she didn’t slow down her movements. “Of course not. But I wanted to, and it’s not like you’re going to complain about it, right?”
A noise escaped my mouth that was somehow a combination of a high pitched whine and a lustful moan. “Yeah but, ah, I was in the middle of something! And then you made me horny, only I couldn’t feel horny! And now I-”
“Drop for me.” All protests vanished as I went limp again. Limp and still. “Are you there again, Doll?”
“This unit is here for you.” Providing pleasure, as ordered. That was my purpose. The fact that I was nearing my own orgasm threshold was irrelevant. The fact that my entire body was filled with pure arousal didn’t matter. What mattered was Kay’s orders, and she hadn’t ordered me to do anything.
Kay grunted before asking her question. “Do you want to cum?” It was a strange question to ask. I didn’t want anything, of course. I had no desires. I was an object, only existing to be used as others demanded.
I responded with the best answer I could. “This unit wants what you want.”
“Copout.” Kay muttered a complaint under her breath, but it was still the best answer I could give. “I love it when you’re all horny and wound up and denied, still begging for more.” By this point, I was filled up with pleasure. It was difficult to listen to her words. I was right at the threshold of an orgasm, ready to cum, but completely unable to. It was a prohibited function. My mind was empty, my body was filled with lust, and I was content to be silent and still as Kay used me for her own relief.
“But this time I’ll give you a nice treat. Doll, rise for me, and disable orgasm inhibitor.”
The climax was immediate. My thoughts returned, and with them, an overwhelming burst of pleasure. Even though I was able to think, all the weeks of pent up teasing, stressful talks, and sex games were overwhelming rational thought. I screamed out as the orgasm tore through my body, thighs convulsing as I squirted all over the place.
And from the feel of things, Kay was in a similar spot. She held her cock in deep as she blasted my pussy with her cum. I could feel the warm fluid shooting up inside of me, her orgasm matching pace with my own. And then we just lay together, her on top of me, basking in the afterglow.
I was the first one to break the silence. “So I guess you’ve been experimenting more with verbal cues?”
Kay giggled.. “It’s fun to set things up ahead of time and watch your mind get melted into a little puddle whenever I want. Although I guess I should go fix that now.”
She moved to get up, but I held her in place. “Kay, you were right. I did need this. A chance to just stop thinking and relax.” I snuggled my body into hers. “In fact… I wouldn’t mind being stupid for a while.”
That caught Kay off guard. “Oh! Um, sure. I mean, I’m obviously not going to complain.”
Hearing that brought a smile to my face. “Great! So whenever you’re ready, you can start messing with my intelligence. You did promise we could do that after that math quiz with the fancy paper.”
Kay furrowed her brow. “Wait, what do you…” She paused for a moment. “Lina, what’s eight times six?”
I had to think for a moment. That was a pretty tough question. “Um… I think it’s around thirty?” I shook my head. “What does that matter? You promised you’d make me a dum-dum.”
Rather than immediately responding, Kay let out a hearty laugh and gave me a sloppy kiss on the forehead. “Alright babe. If you say so.”
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It’s adorable when Lina is completely oblivious to whatever Kay is doing