Over the past several years, I have done my best to be an upstanding citizen and a role model for others. My goal has always been to provide quality content that I can be proud of, and to give you all the quality entertainment that you deserve. It warms my heart to hear stories from people about how my work has influenced their lives. If one single person gets inspired by me, then as far as I’m concerned, everything is worth it.

Which is why it’s so important to properly address the situation. As some of you may be aware, there have been some allegations recently made against me, and I want to tell you all the honest truth. Because that’s what you deserve. And the truth is that my actions have not been in line with the standards and ideals that I hold myself to. I take great pride in my morals and in my work, and part of that is taking accountability when mistakes end up happening.

Please don’t think of this as an ‘apology video.’ I am simply trying to explain what happened, and then each of you can offer your own judgement.

To start things off, yes, I did come into possession of a computer file that allows me to brainwash and take control of the minds of other people who watch it. And yes, it is true that I sent that file to some of my competitors. I understand now that it was wrong of me to do that. The streaming sphere is extremely competitive, and most of us streamers will do anything to get an edge up on each other. I got swept up in that pursuit and lost sight of my own ideals.

So while I did brainwash a number of my fiercest rivals into hypno-drones and began using them as my own personal harem, I want you all to remember that it was just because I care so much about this craft. I’ve never claimed to be perfect. And anyone claiming I was is simply a result of the hypnotic conditioning forcing them to perceive me as their goddess. We all make mistakes, and sadly this was one of mine.

I am deeply sorry for anyone who was offended by what happened to the streamer formerly known as RetroRaven. My intention was to help her with the various hangups and insecurities she’s mentioned before, and to help her embrace a different style of life that many people felt she would enjoy. Some of you may be thinking that I ‘targeted’ her in some way because she was preparing to release a massive exposé on the situation that I was involved with. Rest assured, that was merely a coincidence, and it was never my intent to silence her in any way, shape, or form. I’m sure many of you are former fans of hers, who haven’t migrated to her new content since she adopted the online handle ‘XxJiggleTits_Cumdumpster69xX.’ And to those people I simply ask you to think of how many new fans she’s gained since her change in content.

Now I want to make something clear - I have not been blameless in this situation, and I am taking full accountability for many actions which some people consider me responsible for. However, I have also been a victim in this situation. There has been a targeted harassment campaign against me, one that completely crosses the line of what’s acceptable. I have been called names, insulted, and had tangible threats made against me. My lawyer has assured me that threats of legal action do indeed count as threats, and as such, I will be suing anyone who crossed this line.

Even aside from the unfair wave of hatred I’ve been receiving, this experience has been extremely difficult for me. I have spent entire nights lying awake from the crushing weight of my doubts and insecurities, with nothing to comfort me except for the soft moaning sounds of my former rival fucking herself on camera. 

I’m going to be honest and talk about something I’ve never brought up before - the truth is, I’ve always been deeply insecure about myself and my skills. Ever since I first began streaming I’ve fought with imposter syndrome. While I know that I have a loyal fanbase who truly enjoys me and the content I create (and I love all of you for it), it doesn’t stop the questions from creeping into my brain. Did the other streamers ever even want to do collabs with me, or did they only agree to ride my strapon and worship my feet because I rewired their brains and forced them to crave it? 

And while I appreciate all the success that my channel has seen over the last couple months, it’s also caused the seeds of doubt to grow even larger. Now everytime a fan praises me online, a part of me has to wonder if they really mean it or if they’re just a hypno-slut brainwashed into converting the masses into my loyal slaves. I fully accept that it was my own fault, and that I brought this on myself by letting my anxieties get the best of me. But I hope you can understand that I’ve suffered as well, just as much if not more than anyone else in this ordeal.

Now, I’m sure some of you are happy to hear that. I am fully aware that a large portion of the people watching this are only doing so because they want to see me suffer. To watch me be sad and miserable, simply because they find it amusing. There’s a German word for that - schadenfreude. To take joy in the suffering of others. It’s a word that a lot of people have tossed around and casually accused me of - implying that I’m some sort of ‘emotional sadist’ or ‘actual literal sadist.’ But as I’ve already stated, I found no comfort in tormenting and humiliating others. So to all the haters and trolls watching, I hope you’re feeling proud of yourself. Watching somebody suffer from mental health issues and hoping they suffer even further.

If you’re one of those people, maybe you can use this opportunity for self-reflection. I’ve admitted my faults and my wrongdoings. Maybe it’s time for you to do the same.

It was never my intention to hurt anyone. Not when I set out to become a streamer, not when I first experimented with the files, and not when I hypnotised one of my haters into being a pain slut who can only get off on getting her cunt whipped and spanked. In retrospect, it’s easy to see the impact that my actions and my riding crop had on others, but hindsight is twenty-twenty. 

I can’t go back and change the past. I can’t just send out a mass hypnosis script on my livestream to make everyone forget what happened. I’ve learned from my mistakes, such as discovering that any hypnosis attempt made over my live stream is going to fail because the pre-programmed sponsorship breaks interrupt the mental conditioning. It was a mistake because it was wrong of me to do that, and also because my last ditch attempt to seize control and create a mass army of slaves was a failure.

Ultimately, I’m simply here to accept judgement. All I have to offer are my words, and my most sincere apologies. Now, I’m sure that some of you will be cynical about this. Some of you are going to think that I’m only apologising because I was called out, because my master plan for mass domination failed, or because the same hypnotic programming was used on me by my former slaves and now I can only cum if people genuinely forgive me. But that’s not why I’m sorry, I’m sorry because I regret what I did.

So what comes next for this channel? Well, I’m sure some of you will be excited to hear this, but Slutty Saturdays are coming back! I’m even going to be streaming with some of the same content creators that I’ve been collabing with over the previous few months. Granted, the positions will be different and I’ll be the one getting locked up, bound, and railed, but I’m hoping my fans will enjoy this new style.

Thank you all for giving me this second chance, and for listening to my side of the story. Hopefully you all understand now that it was truly a complex situation, and there’s more than the common narrative that I’m some power-hungry maniac who used mind control to get her way and create perverse punishments for anyone I didn’t like. Listening to all the available information is important, and we could all benefit from simply taking the time to listen and understand others. 

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